rainbows are just so nice and soothing aren't they?(:

at least it reminds us of the little things that once used to brought smiles onto us when we were still a child, or maybe even now.

it holds a special meaning for me,

cos it made me think of her.

hi people!

heard that there was a double rainbow seen a couple of days ago.

that spells something nice doesn't it?

(:

weekends are coming, do have a good break yeah everyone.

find an avenue whereby you can be free of the rat race and relax yourself for that moment.

i've found mine, how about you?

im addicted to novels once again. it's a genre called wu xia xiao shuo in mandarin.

used to read them to kill them in the past.

but ever since i got busy, they were shoved back onto the shelves, till few days back.

somehow, the stories potrayed in these novels allow me to really be engaged in that imaginary world of the story, and be free from the reality for a moment.

in that thought-up world, anything and everything is possible.

people possess huge amount of power and resposibilities too.

things are much simpler as well, not like how we are living currently.

it seriously calls back your childhood dreams and relive those moments you once went through.

some may find it childish,

but not in my view.

read this phrase off somewhere :

we do not stop playing because we grow old.

we grow old because we stop playing.

bring out that child in you.

at times, we should really give ourselves a break from this tiring rat race in the reality.

as for me,

a break from those troubles i have

be it necessary ones, or unnecessary ones.

cheers(:

shucks.

block test's like finally over.
but i can't really feel the much anticipated happiness.

in fact, kind of disappointed.

it wasn't my 100%
im bloody sure about that.




i seriously need more self-discipline to pick up my pace.
anyone to give me a lesson or two on that?

it'll be much appreciated.
*sigh*





2nd year into my JC life yet im still regretting this route.
i once told myself

don't regret no matter what.
since you have chosen it, go on with it in a positive way.


obviously, im not living up to my words.
it shows now.

that one or two missing ingredient in me that will start me off.

motivation, self discipline, control.


damn.
that sounds like quite a bit doesn't it?

and im seriously not liking those scenes that are revolving around me.
it makes me envy them, those in pairs, and i hate that feeling totally.




i swear im going to make my mark one day.

have so much to say, yet im out of words to describe.



hey there people.
been a good day for you?
i hope so(:





thoughts are running through my mind again
and it really got me into an all-time-low mood for the day.

i feel so inferior now
feel so unprepared, so powerless.



how many really knows the me under my protective front?

i feel so drained out and tired.

i screwed up today's paper totally..
falling asleep halfway while writing.
how genius...

i need a break!

gosh.
school is getting so omg nowadays=.=
rushing like a train on the loose
*sigh*




teachers are like moving really fast through the topics
because of the need to complete the syllabus.


but hey, no point completing

if we didn't manage to absorb or catch up with what was being taught.


We all know J2 life is gonna be hectic like mad
but something like, a study break might prove to be useful.

this is getting so tiring.




btw, i heard Japan's GDP fell by 19% this year?
that is such an unexpected figure!

and that seriously is a scary figure..
The world's second largest economy is being hit so hard.
let's hope the soon-to-be-in-place Finance minister Kaoru Yosano can steer the country out of this.

personally, i think this fall is partly due to the culture of Japanese.
They are quite a conservative race i would say, yes, conservative, in a way that they start to save in bad times and cut their spending by a huge amount.
That's what the asians normally do isn't it?

perhaps they should really start spending to bring the economy back up..





oh yeah btw, NYJC badminton team might be going batam during the march hols to spar with the indo players.

something i really anticipate, yet kind of fear.
for simple reasons like,

sparring adds up to our experiences

but the level of skill of indon players i heard is like... *woah*
so... yeah.
let's see how it goes.

and and, another thing i really looking forward to,
the PE enrichment programme i signed up for minutes ago.

Archery!

cool right~
haha.

hope there's enough participants.
*fingers crossed*

found this particularly meaningful, so i thought maybe i could share with you guys.



"It's never too late, or in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it."

"And i hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. "

"I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."


-Benjamin Button (from the film The Curious Case of Benjamin Button), in a letter to his daughter.

sudden urge to blog, so here i am.
pretty ok day, with half a day spent in school
another half with my group of J1s.
not bad uh~
















anyway, i just confirmed another fact about myself.


I seriously have very bad mood swings, worse than a girl's pms i tell you.




in a day, you can see me laugh emo x5 times repeatedly
scary?
*sigh*





for some reason, my mood's at the bottom again currently,
maybe it's cos the Valentine's effect.


Somehow, 2 days i dislike most during a year are Valentine's and my bday.
weird huh.
will not elaborate much, but i guess it's pretty much obvious.







at times, i just somehow hate myself.
yeah, myself.
hate that why do i think so much.
to the extend it really drives my mood down, really badly.
am i just bothering myself unnecessarily?

are my priorities right?
i wish i know the answer to this.

had a talk with my dad just now.
same old topic.


born as a guy, i knew i carry different responsibilities from the girls
and as the eldest grandson of a really traditional grandfather
even greater responsibilites lie on my shoulders.

i know the expectations my family have of me.

i seriously dont wish to disappoint them...
and myself as well.

put me in any areas/field, i'll put up the best fight i can.

i really really want to let them be proud of me, of my achievements.
if possible, i'll give in my 120% into everything i do.
but, there's this me that nobody knows of.
and, perhaps i wouldn't let anyone to know of too,
till i met that HER in my life.

this is the damn area that's driving me crazy everyday and night.



countless of times i tried to balance and rearrange things
but all efforts in vain.
sometimes, i wish i was born differently, then perhaps, things will have gotten better.



some much in me to say
yet dont know what to say
who to say to...


at nights like this, how i wish i have someone to turn to...

i know, i am pathetic.
laugh all you wan to.







i just feel so tired..








"Love is like playing the piano. First you must learn to play by the rules, then you must forget the rules and play from your heart." ♥

-Unknown



















P.S : those in black, the lovely J1 bunch i took charge of.
the one in blue, my OGL mate.

damn!
im suffering from post-orientation syndromes!

I WANT ANOTHER ORIENTATION, ANOTHER 31ST MASS DANCE, ANOTHER HOT N COLD!




anyway, hi peepo(:
weekends are here agn.
Have a break!



by the way, V day's tomorrow.
Who's booked and who's not?

i am currently in the Singles club, welcomes any member who wish to join me.
*laughs*


school was c r a p today.
had this media seminar.
with the econs homework due by 1pm,
apparently the only choice left for me was to do the hmwk right?

SAY "YES" PEOPLE~ (:


in the end, i missed everything.
and now, i think there's a need to do some sort of a reflection...
i am s o o o o o d e a d =.=


gonna go keep my homework company now.
ciao people.
Enjoy~




Cheers(:


P.S : Meeting OG6 tmr, woo~ or maybe i should start calling them as 0921(:

Orientation '09!

WOO!
Nanyang Orientation '09 ended on a high note.
It was a blast!
all the fun and laughter, cannot be found anywhere except in Gloria OG6(:




Gloria 0G6 is the bunch of kids me and my fellow OGL mates are supposed to be in-charge of
*laughs*
they are in CT 0921 now.
A bunch of really lovely and friendly people.

i can bet on anything that their class sure gonna be filled with fun and laughter everyday(:




A week ago, i was actually still in a dilemma should i go for orientation or not
due to the fact that i'll fall behind the pace of my fellow classmates.
but now, all i can say is

it's really worth all my time and effort.
Given a choice, i'll still choose to go again(:





Days 1 and 2 were great.
everything was kinda smooth and there were no hiccups too.
The class is also getting to know each other really fast and that saves us, the OGLs, lots of effort
haha!

Day 3 OGLs weren't around, but i got the news that my OG won smth.
Good job!(:

Day 4, which has just ended today, ended on a perfect note, at least for me(:

can tell how good my mood is currently from all those smiley faces all over my post?
*laughs*

Wet games were good, everything else was great(:
my tribe, GLORIA, won the cheering competition and the dance competition!

my last 31st mass dance ended perfectly too(:
(people, dont anyhow guess guess, if let me find out you'll si dao hen nan kan, esp nick, LOL)
*mouth zip*

let's see when and where can i kope all those pictures, then shall load it up here.
time to sleep now, though i still have hmwk, super shagged!
till then,
takecare ppl(:




Cheers(:

Family day(:

Hey folks!
how's ya been?
hope you had a good rest over the weekends.

i definitely had a good one today(:






had tuition early in the morning, 8am=.=
and guess what?
it's physics.


had it until like 11+ am
before calling my mum up.
was supposed to meet my family at Bukit Batok
but ended up they picking me up outside CJC.
shan't elaborate, dont wan throw my own face.
*laughs*






seriously, i went on a feast today.
had such a bloated lunch @ IMM
Wan Chai restaurant(:

SUPER SATISFYING :D






after lunch exercise ( i meant activity)
was grocery shopping at Giant.

it's been soooo long since i last stepped into Giant.
so i snapped a few pics, < size="5">O.o

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Commodity goods! haha! They have inelastic demand *laughs

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Look at this.
This is what i call Economic Economy pants.

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Wall Street brand slacks! hahaha!

how cool is that? Lmao

i guess that's about it folks. Rest well and get prep up for sch/work tmr yeah.

ohh yeah, do remember to go take a look at my post for yesterday. The one on Flower delivery(:

Cheers(:

Valentine's

Hey folks.

Valentine's Day is just one week away!
Saturday next week will be the day you can show your affection for your love interest.


For the guys,

-have you always :

wanted to tell the girl the next class you love her but you're afraid of rejection?

OR

wanted to confess to your secondary classmate that you actually have been admiring her throughout your secondary life but cant find a chance?



For the girls,

-are you waiting for an opportunity to :

show your love for your man and make him all smitten over you?

OR

take the initiative because you're tired of waiting for your guy to do so and show your man
the meaning of being romantic and sweet?



Wait no more, because your opportunity is here!(:



Flowers delivery!



If you have always missed the desirable times to confess your feelings for the one you love, then consider this coming Valentine's Day.

and the best part is?

It falls on a saturday! No school or work!
Woo~



Moreover, if you're troubling over what to prepare for Valentine's, this might also be a solution to you. *Smiles*



Presenting to you...

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1-800 flowers delivery!


The reason why i recommend this particular online flower delivery is just simply because

(1) The shop owner is very nice and opens to all negotiations, of which mostly is taken into account and amended to your preference.

(2) The price is pretty reasonable and delivers islandwide, on the days you want.

(3) They offer some little thoughtful extra items such as Ferrero Rocher and Disney soft toys, all for a reasonable price.




So, even i've made my order,
what are you waiting for?


Don't wait or be afraid to show your affection for your love ones today, because they might be admiring/loving you as well!(:






Cheers(:

short break

hey folks.
it's me again(:
how has been ur week?
whatever it is, it's time to take a short break.

It's the weekends! (:




do take a break to recharge yourself from all that work alright?
too much work ain't good yeah.
*laughs.*


me myself will be going off for a 3 days break because of the J1 orientation.

Hope it's fun!

but those lessons i gonna miss...omg...

anyway, the reason why i updated today,
it's because of an experience that left an impression so deep in my heart.

a really heart-felt experience.




let me explain.
after cca training, i went to have some snacks with the team.
Just as i was about to go off, a senior offer to give me a lift to AMK mrt station.

Of course i said yes!






and...
it saved my super tired legs and aching knees from all that walking + standing in the bus.
Now you know why i say it's heart-felt experience?
hahahaha!




so, i made a promise to myself.
If possible, i'll get myself a license this year or next before im enlisted for NS.

Having a car is so damn freaking convenient!
no joke man.

*Arrgs!*
should have taken my license in malaysia last year.
Never mind, shall wait for the end of A lvls.

9 more months!
































Wait for me, both of you will be mine real soon.
Really soon, i promised.

hahaha!



cheers(:

100%? or 99%?

hey there.
you guys notice any difference?
i removed my post yesterday.

first,
im not that pissed anymore.
secondly,
im afraid of violating any forms of rules or offending anyone o_o

like my friend sultan said, it's a critical issue~
(:




so, it's either you read it yesterday, or no chance to read it
*laughs*

but one fact i mentioned yesterday still hold true.

my homework is freaking piling up=.=



that is so not a good sign...
at least not when you're in JC 2..
*sigh*

there are seriously so many movies i wanna watch
but it's either

(1) I got no time

(2) No idea who to find to watch with.




sad right?
*sigh*.


my time nowadays are all used on studying, doing tutorials, cca training and resting.
everday is like super packed.
and im trying to squeeze in a little bit of revision time here and there.
so that i'll not screw up the block test.

like they say, meet with any obstacles/challenges, it's either fight or flight
*laughs*

i wish i can choose the latter
but apparently i dont have a choice D:







anyway, my cca ex-captain chatted with me today.
struck another issue which sets me thinking again.


i was telling her that for trainings, sometimes i hold back and don't put in my 100% or more,
is because that im afraid that if i really put in every single burst of my energy, i'll be like a corpse when i reach home.

and that means homework piles up even more!
plus revision!


i hold back to reserve that little amount of energy so that when i reach home, at least i still can do some work.

and she goes,

"NO! dont hold back! You might regret one day.. erm..."


of course, i was like pretty stunned for the first few seconds.

so i kind of like explained to her, and she ends up saying

"might be because you know yourself too well. Afterall, diff people work differently. For me, i just chiong (put in ur best) for everything. But i think you're doing the right thing ba, continue it. Jiayou!"





confused?
ok, explaination goes.

i told her that im one of those who cant survive a day without sleep or without enough sleep.
If i do not get enough rest, next time most probably i'll :

-have a super foul temper

-Feel v v sleepy in lecture and class

-have no idea what the lesson/lecture is about

-even if i know what's going on, i cant seem to absorb in.




thats why she made that second comment.
and my reply to her was..


"sometimes i really wonder am i really doing the best/right/good thing for myself. Or am i just finding excuses for myself?"





kind of like contradict and ironic right.

i dont know about you guys, but at times i even full of doubts at myself.
and the more i think, it makes me more vexed and frustated.




personally, i still hold the stand that one should know himself/herself and then plan accordingly.

Know what you want and then go as planned.

different people will have different perspectives, different conclusions.
What matters most is still your own, because you're the one living your life.
Don't put too much doubts on yourself as i do, because it seriously does not help.


Life's about living to the fullest and enjoying every single second.
If everything is just full of doubts and questions that we have to look for answers constantly, isn't it a bit too tiring?








Cheers(:

worried!

omg.
it's a damn pure waste of time trying to study for the maths test today.


I screwed it up totally=.=


guess i wouldn't be having peaceful nights of sleep for the next few days/weeks.
*sigh









Cheers(:

exhausted

that's my little cousin there , by the name of An An(:
he's too busy playing with that air-con remote control to be bothered with me there
*laughs.

ohh ya, he turned 1 year old 3 days ago, according to the lunar calender.
isn't he cute~ ? ((:






anyway, i've checked by post and the previous one was like a week ago.
*Wide eyes*

so far, i think that's the longest i've not posted?
school has been keeping me soooo darn occupied, i swear.


Tutorials are given out everyday
lectures touching on new areas and topics as it proceeds.
omg, soon i'll be falling behind everyone else,
given the fact that im a one that learn things super slow yet forget the facts super fast.

that is so so so undesirable for a JC student =.=
not when all the work are starting to cram up.




and, did i mention that i'll be away for 3 days the week after next due to OGL?
Block test is like 2 weeks after that.
darn.
another distressing fact, there's a maths lecture test coming up on monday.
If i screw the test up, the teacher is going to screw me up,
plus i most probably have to say bye-bye to being an OGL.


tomorrow's need to be a day of intensive mugging
yet with my aunts and relatives from malaysia here, that sounds like a difficult task to fulfil.

i wan 30 hours a day!



*phew*
that's everything about the ranting part.
now onto a happier note(:



On the happier note(: :


went teacher visiting today.
Mdm Ho, my secondary school Biology teacher.
She's a real nice person.
i can bet on my head that everyone agrees about this, lol.



kind of "gambled" a little.
and apparently, Lady Luck isn't smiling on me.
being the wise one, i ran away, haha.





Pool-ing was after the visiting.
Been soooo long since i went pool-ing.
relaxed and enjoyed a little today(:
now, onto the....




Deep down thoughts :


it's 1:27am now.
signs of fatigue are setting in, but somehow i just can't fall asleep just yet.
is this isomnia?
*laughs





anyway, sort of found out a little bit more things today.
then as usual, thoughts started coming in, waves of emotions started surging out.



What is meant by FRIEND?

When do you consider someone your friend?




I've been having this problem ever since secondary school.

seriously, im so picky about friends that somehow, i've become anti-social and dislike by some.
Believe it or not, thats my personal feeling about myself.



I just can't seem to open up myself to just anyone.
It take me days and week,s or maybe even months to get myself a friend.

I don't really talk.


Perhaps it's a fault of mine, but i make friends based on my judgement.
A fella can be someone around me that i thought might be able to talk to in the future one day.
However, the next day if he/she do something wrong, my perspective of that person change totally.
A little extreme i would say.




I believe true friends dont come just with frequent gatherings or saying hi going out everyday.

Maybe even a heart-to-heart talk once per month is all that needed.

of course frequent meet-ups make the bonds stronger, however what's the point if you appear to be nice on the surface, deep down inside you are cursing and swearing?
Doesn't if feel tired to put up that pretence all the while?
it's so hypocritical.

sometimes, if one side start to bridge the gap, give in.
it's always better to gain a friend than an enemy.
and not creating more trouble with immature thinking, childish and petty mindset.


Im glad for myself to have found a friend i can really rely on.


I am still waiting for the curtains to be pulled up for a show that's bound to happen anytime.




gosh, think im going to stop all this.
my eyes and mind are starting to give up on me now.
need to get that rest.
take cares peepo!



















An An(:
he's really so so so cute(:



















omg, i just love babies so much!(:

cheers(: