exhausted

that's my little cousin there , by the name of An An(:
he's too busy playing with that air-con remote control to be bothered with me there
*laughs.

ohh ya, he turned 1 year old 3 days ago, according to the lunar calender.
isn't he cute~ ? ((:






anyway, i've checked by post and the previous one was like a week ago.
*Wide eyes*

so far, i think that's the longest i've not posted?
school has been keeping me soooo darn occupied, i swear.


Tutorials are given out everyday
lectures touching on new areas and topics as it proceeds.
omg, soon i'll be falling behind everyone else,
given the fact that im a one that learn things super slow yet forget the facts super fast.

that is so so so undesirable for a JC student =.=
not when all the work are starting to cram up.




and, did i mention that i'll be away for 3 days the week after next due to OGL?
Block test is like 2 weeks after that.
darn.
another distressing fact, there's a maths lecture test coming up on monday.
If i screw the test up, the teacher is going to screw me up,
plus i most probably have to say bye-bye to being an OGL.


tomorrow's need to be a day of intensive mugging
yet with my aunts and relatives from malaysia here, that sounds like a difficult task to fulfil.

i wan 30 hours a day!



*phew*
that's everything about the ranting part.
now onto a happier note(:



On the happier note(: :


went teacher visiting today.
Mdm Ho, my secondary school Biology teacher.
She's a real nice person.
i can bet on my head that everyone agrees about this, lol.



kind of "gambled" a little.
and apparently, Lady Luck isn't smiling on me.
being the wise one, i ran away, haha.





Pool-ing was after the visiting.
Been soooo long since i went pool-ing.
relaxed and enjoyed a little today(:
now, onto the....




Deep down thoughts :


it's 1:27am now.
signs of fatigue are setting in, but somehow i just can't fall asleep just yet.
is this isomnia?
*laughs





anyway, sort of found out a little bit more things today.
then as usual, thoughts started coming in, waves of emotions started surging out.



What is meant by FRIEND?

When do you consider someone your friend?




I've been having this problem ever since secondary school.

seriously, im so picky about friends that somehow, i've become anti-social and dislike by some.
Believe it or not, thats my personal feeling about myself.



I just can't seem to open up myself to just anyone.
It take me days and week,s or maybe even months to get myself a friend.

I don't really talk.


Perhaps it's a fault of mine, but i make friends based on my judgement.
A fella can be someone around me that i thought might be able to talk to in the future one day.
However, the next day if he/she do something wrong, my perspective of that person change totally.
A little extreme i would say.




I believe true friends dont come just with frequent gatherings or saying hi going out everyday.

Maybe even a heart-to-heart talk once per month is all that needed.

of course frequent meet-ups make the bonds stronger, however what's the point if you appear to be nice on the surface, deep down inside you are cursing and swearing?
Doesn't if feel tired to put up that pretence all the while?
it's so hypocritical.

sometimes, if one side start to bridge the gap, give in.
it's always better to gain a friend than an enemy.
and not creating more trouble with immature thinking, childish and petty mindset.


Im glad for myself to have found a friend i can really rely on.


I am still waiting for the curtains to be pulled up for a show that's bound to happen anytime.




gosh, think im going to stop all this.
my eyes and mind are starting to give up on me now.
need to get that rest.
take cares peepo!



















An An(:
he's really so so so cute(:



















omg, i just love babies so much!(:

cheers(: