shucks.

block test's like finally over.
but i can't really feel the much anticipated happiness.

in fact, kind of disappointed.

it wasn't my 100%
im bloody sure about that.




i seriously need more self-discipline to pick up my pace.
anyone to give me a lesson or two on that?

it'll be much appreciated.
*sigh*





2nd year into my JC life yet im still regretting this route.
i once told myself

don't regret no matter what.
since you have chosen it, go on with it in a positive way.


obviously, im not living up to my words.
it shows now.

that one or two missing ingredient in me that will start me off.

motivation, self discipline, control.


damn.
that sounds like quite a bit doesn't it?

and im seriously not liking those scenes that are revolving around me.
it makes me envy them, those in pairs, and i hate that feeling totally.




i swear im going to make my mark one day.