crap~




it s___ big time when my urge to study comes on moment
and is gone the next.




please
just bless me with the strength to carry on all this.

Sup.

time check : 0116



given my level of fatigue
i should be in bed snoring away right now
but decided to update a little(:





had napfa test in the morning.
was kind of smooth this year.
got a silver on the first attempt.

last year i had to do twice because of my pull up
but i managed to clear it today(:
what shocked me was SBJ and Sit & Reach.
the results were horrible initially.

first attempt @ SBJ : 218cm =______=
lucky i managed to jump well and cleared later on.

first attempt @ Sit & Reach : 36 cm =________=
that is like soooooooo short!

but still, best i did was 38cm=.=
im too stiff!
and ms toh called me ying bang bang for that.
how nice =.=







spent the rest of the day with 0921.
a nice bunch of peeps they are(:
met up at around 445
pool-ed, dinner, bday celebration for 3.
reached home not long ago.

it has really been a good escape from my work for today.
enjoyed.

living in this world has seriously gotten more demanding and tougher.
sometimes, i wish i could just have a breather.
a period of the usual routine of school, work and sports
just a little escape to a village

a cup of coffee every morning
with the greenery as my backdrop
and a huge beautiful lake infront of the house.
of course, with the special her around.



time for sleep.

time check : 0130


Cheers(:

gosh.
In a few days time, we'll be leaving March behind!
Mid Year is seriously closing up on me.
of course, the As too.







Life has always been hectic, hasn't it?
It's always one task after another.
Physically, we already have quite a bit to manage, all the work and stuffs.
but not forgetting, a psychological side that resides in us need to be balanced out as well.

At times, people just conked out or break down under pressure.
Can't really blame them.
After all, different people have different levels of tolerance of stress yeah.
plus, at times everything bad might just hit you altogether in a blow, leaving you no time to react.

Before you knew it, you are down already.






For me, i guess im going through this part of the life currently. Things haven't been going really well for me.

There are times when i seriously feel like giving up and just let it all go.
It just make me feel so tired.

i tried and tried telling myself
"come on, just think positive. It's gonna get over, buck up and start working".

apparently, it's not working that well now.
All the negative feelings just seem to set in on me.
how how?

*sigh*






Life's such a task.
in a more religious perspective,
coming to this earth is already a form of sufferring, having unable to attain nirvana and enlightment,
and because as a human, u have to go through the pain of living, leaving, dying and being apart.
agree?



At this point in time, i do.
but i know it can be loads better.

gotta ciao.
omg, i find this post so crap all of sudden.




Napfa's tmr. With my knee in a bad shape, i wonder how am i going to run?
and of cos, my chin ups.


Miracles do happen, dont they?

life seems to get harder.
trying real hard to get a grip over it.

yearn for a listening ear and an understanding soul to be there with me..

seen the two pics above?

results of run-away anger.

the spots being circled, those are the cracks that appeared after i smash

my racket into the floor when i was fuming.

things just aren't right for me now

change it back, will you?

ohh screw.
sch's on tmr.


hellish days and work start tmr!
but im sure i gonna survive through it ( i think )
though chances apparently aren't too high =/

i told myself
no matter what.
im so gonna go on stage to receive my results slip next year.


gotta ciao.
econs mini research paper.




Cheers(:



P.S: More holidays. please~?

so much to say
yet words just cannot describe it all.



total crapness~
=_____=


hey there peeps.
weekends are here agn!
which means another week has passed us.
thats fast!






like as usual, life's been pretty mundane
which is good in a way
but yet bad
cos felt like kind of wasted.



instead of being high, filling it with all the fun and joy
i chose to let life be slow and mundane.
*sigh*
what to do?



anyway, few days back i saw this baby on the train when i was returning home from training.
was talking to brenda, when the baby started grabbing my pants
(she was in a pram)


then i turned around
and saw her looking at me
with the big round gooo-gooo eyes
and the smile hung on her face.


i "melted" instantly.
she's just so cute!

i nearly wanted to just carry that baby out of the pram and start to cuddle her.
but i reckon i'll be assaulted by the mum if i do that
so... i dropped that idea
*laugh*














but Babies are just simply so cute!
they are the one thing i just cant resist.

















looking at them,
i found the peace and the moment of joy that is so pure and so true on its own.
seeing their smile
hearing that laughter makes my day(:


the world we lived in now.

so saturated
so "evil"
so cold


that virtue of innocence in the babies.
that simple world they have
that pure joy and happiness they possess.

oh, how i envy them.


perhaps im too young and a tad immature now to say that
but i wish to have a baby of my own.
my kid.

Babies are simply just so cute
and really make me want to look after and take care of them.
of cos, the responsibilities that follows are no joke.
but still
seeing babies and cuddling them make you feel loved and blissful, doesn't it?
(:

The magic in them..



Cheers(:

people
try this vid.
it's beautiful~


the settings are right
the singers are way good~

perhaps it may sound exaggerating to you
but seriously
it hits me real hard and i simply love this vid so damn much.
Enjoy(:



Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat

hey all

had a nice rest over the weekends?


i kinda had one(:
but it ended up today hasn't been fruitful *Sigh*
let's start with sat.




when all were still sleeping, i was preparing for my trip down to NTU.
Signed up for this Economics Seminar about a month ago.
The fact that the lectures were gonna be given by Professors and doctors of NTU made this trip seemed like a worthwhile one to me, and it proven to be as well.






weeks before the seminar, the frightening thought of a straight day of economics struck me
but still, i signed up for it, at the expense of my survival

(i might collapsed halfway in the lect for all you know, due to all the bombastic and profound information pressing on my brain)

*laughs*


but it ended up that there were tea breaks, apart from the usual lunch break.
ok, maybe it's just that im sua-gu, didn't know seminars have tea breaks, haha.




the whole session and experience was a pretty good one(:
except for a few.
It's not that it's not good, just that it was too sophisticated for the limited amount of brain cells i have working on that day =/

but still, the session was truly beneficial(:







seeing that the lunch break was like 1.5 hours,
my mates and I, namely haihuang and win,
went touring around NTU after our pathetic lunch (the serving was really small!)

Coincidentally, that day was the open house for NTU as well.
headed for their auditorium.


Then, the "business personality" in me were starting to get active, thus my first reaction to look out for the Nanyang Business School booth.
Managed to find it in a just a short time(:
Had a conversation with one of their students, broadened my perspective and views on business courses.

Might be taking a few more degrees into consideration before narrowing down on one.

ohh yeah, did i mention that cheryl's sis is studying there?
How cool is that!


well, most probably i'll be taking SMU and NUS, as well as other courses into consideration as well, since i have like almost up to a year to think about it(:

but 100% it'll be business-related, just that is it Bachelor in Accountancy, Business Admin, Banking and Finance etc.


seriously, that conversation i had with the Year 2 student, it was really beneficial.
led me on to think more and more about the path i should take.
It's a decision that will decides how my career path will be like
A wrong choice might not give you the most amount of joy and satisfaction one should have.

Credits to him ( i didn't managed to get his name, but he's an accountacy student)



i should really start planning and set my sights into 5-10 years from now for a short term achievement, and 20-30 years from now for the long term one.

some can be so successful even before the age of 25.
yes, some luck is needed, but i believe perspiration and hardworking plays the dominant part.

i seriously wish to have some achievements before im 30.
i want my family to be proud of me

i want to be proud of myself.

i want to live the life i want.




but it's a fact that my self-discipline just s__k.
it's about time i work on that.
A lvls isn't far.

i'll need all the self discipline i have to work towards that, and of cos, my goals and career as well.


back to seminar part 2 aft that.
as mentioned, was pretty good.

it had a lecture on the value of human life, how much is your life worth?

something not done in class, and it was pretty interesting!
the seminar ended off with a light note.




Speaker : well, if yo 'll haven't noticed, there was a hot air balloon flying around just now during your lunch break.

*Audiences go oooh*

Speaker : The PM was on a suprise tour with his ministers. Then above this area, he shouted down at some of the students, which i see them in a corner of this room right now, "where are we?"

*Audiences go wow"

Speaker : well, after hearing the answer, the PM would definitely have known he's just above the Economics LT."

*Puzzled look*

Speaker : They shouted back at the PM, "You are here!". It was immediate, technically correct and... completely useless!


*ROFL*
The whole LT burst into laughter.


Kudos to those who understand this(:






Sunday hasn't been a fruitful day for me, so i shall skip(:

it's about time for me to go snore away in my bed and enter lala land.
gotta report to sch by 8 tmr, which means need to wake up by 6!

Ciaos!




Cheers(:

career seminar day
speaker for GIA was way cool and amazing!

had training
watched The One in NY
it rocks my socks!

good job SC!




thoughts for the day :


love is not everything ;
Love makes the world goes round.


Practise what you preach (absolutely)



Koped from Audrey's blog :

We either make ourselves miserable or make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.
-Carlos Castaneda

pretend, pretence

hey peepo.
hope you all are doing fine with the crazy weather these few days!






had a talk with one of my friend today.
kinda worked out well for the both of us,
shared our p.o.v and thoughts.


it's like..
the world today is so "fake", in a way.
everywhere you go, you can see people putting up pretences.

nice to you on the surface
might be jabbing you the next moment behind your back.


or the mouth is actually saying "yeah, ohh ok~"
and in the mind it actually goes "ohh, damn you".
kind of sad isn't it?


frankly,
how many of you make fair judgements with no bias or tweaked impressions?

personally, i am proud to say that i actually do that 90% of the time.
no one is perfect, neither am I

however, before every judgement i make, i question myself this

"Am I in the position to make that judgement?"



if it's a bad impression, then this pop out in my mind.

"Have i done something similar? Did i change? otherwise why am I critisizing others?"





it's some sort of a self reflection for me i would say.

This world contains too much controversy.
every little disagreement can sparke off a dispute, argument or even a furore.


what is right and what is wrong?


it all depends on the majority and the norm i guess.

it's natural and inevitable for everyone to create different judgements and impressions.



however, it'll be nice to just do a sort of a little self-reflection before developing that thought/judgement.

if you formed a bad impression on someone yet you once carried out that act that gave you that bad impression, then on what grounds are you to judge on that act?


it all requires maturity, a sense of self-reflection and being humble i would say.
it requires time in cultivating these habits
which im in the process of doing so too.
however, i dont think im seeing much of this sight.
am i wrong to say that?

i would love someone to prove me wrong on that.




what i believe,
as long as you do reflect upon your actions and do make a change over the mistakes
then believe in your own actions.

whatever criticism/compliments, take it in.
reflect upon it.
Throw out the ones that just spells crap.

it's easy recognising those that carries no weight in them,
looking at who made the comments.

and,
thanks those who knock you down in your path.
because he had just made you into a stronger person.






Cheers(:

a fall so hard

bloody pissed, disappointed and demoralised by my results.
no one to blame but myself.





really wish to talk to her

affairs of the heart

wouldn't this world be a better place with a bit more love in the air?



hi there people.
life's been good?
i hope so.

i ain't having a really good time though =/
pressure crushing down on me since the receiving of results
coupled with some other matters that have been troubling me since like 123456789n weeks ago
it's really draining every bit of energy i have.






had a really long sleep today.
bout half the day gone.
hope this gives me the energy i need to carry on.
*fingers crossed*




to my friends/anyone out there,
if you also bothered by the matters of the heart
all the best.

don't be afraid to speak out your feelings.

sometimes, it helps to be thick-skinned a little(:





Cheers(:

the path lies in your hand

hello people.

today's a big day for a number of people.

A levels results release day!




the seniors of NYJC came back to collect their results today
and get their deserved recognition for the grades they worked hard for.

They must have a not-so-good sleep yesterday night
having all kinds of feelings inside them
*laughs


the collection of results started with recognising those who scored 3 distinctions or better
they were called on stage to collect their results slip from the principal himself

i can barely imagine that feeling of joy and relief that surged in them when they see their names appearing of the big screen infront of the J2 and graduate cohort.
that moment when you felt that after 2 years of hardwork and perseverance, it finally paid off.

i was full of envy back then, wishing that i am one of them, receiving the many distinctions.
then, i released i still have a good long way to go, but i'll get myself standing in their position the next year when collecting my results.

i'll get myself a place in NTU business and get hold of an MBA.

once again, congrats to all.






after that was training.
today was a-ok~.
wasn't any physical,
plenty of games and matches.
with the real one against ACJC setting in on tuesday.

i'll start visualising how im going to win them
*laughs*
however, the main point of why im posting today lies in what happened after the training.


kimwei, a NYJC senior/alumni, joined teck wei yilong bernice and me for dinner tonight.
we sort of have a talk on how education and skills are important today's practical society, how life pose challenges to us.

The latter was the one that caught my attention as kimwei recollected and shared his insights and experiences.



Each and every one of us have a different life of our own, an one and only unique story that will slowly unveil as we move on.

However, how the story goes and how it ends depends on no one but us ourselves.
we hold that choice, that miracle that we are able to create in our hands.

Life is definitely full of challenges and obstacles.
However, you only get to live it once, you want to live it through by blaming all the stupid obstacles and challenges that stood in your way preventing you to becoming who you can,
OR
you take on the challenges with confidence and move on to becoming a stronger and better person?




Feeling bad and angry when posed a challenge will only aggravates the problem.
it makes you feel worse, more lousy.


every/any event that happen in your life is a brand new experience, how you wan to make use of it lies in your choice. Whether to turn it into a learning point, or to just let it pass by , it lies solely on you.




A mind which thinks positively will definitely carry you further than the one that constantly says no and give up.

set your mindset the right tune today and each day will be a better day to you.




Cheers(:

it was TOTALLY TERRIBLE to receive my grades today.
it suck totally!




one was expected, one was unexpected.
the one which was expected, it still felt sucky receiving such grades.

the one unexpected,
i had a terrible shock upon receiving back the script.
speechless for minutes.
but what done's done.




this will be a wake up call for me ( i hope )


i swear i'll make a comeback.

Attention people!

i saw this video on facebook and seriously, i give my respect to the speaker, though she's only a teenager that might be around my age, or maybe even younger.



This young girl speaks about a controversial topic that might spark off yet another fierce debate within the world's greatest organisation, United Nations.


She stands strong, with pride as she represents those with the same ambitions and goals as her.

Even a teenager like her stands infront of the UN and address this critical issue at the moment, isn't it time that we should do something within our limits?



http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/video/video.php?v=63865811753&ref=nf

Go on the link to see how the girl silenced the world for 6 minutes at the UN conference.