Disappointment.

backed again for a quick update.



i just realised.
at times i seriously feel like my life is so screwed up.
Have i really lived my life for the 17 years+ so far?

i wonder.



reality is harsh.
it always is.

For a mere piece of paper,
we have to slog our 2 years away, in distress and pressure.
For a mere piece of paper,
we have to give up what we like to do best just to slog for that paper.
Now,
that's reality for now.


Definitely, we have progressed far from what we used to be.
look at all the possible lavish lifestyles one can have.
but that came for a price.

Look at how we're working today as compared to the past generations.
that's the price.



No matter how much i hate it,
I have to continue slogging for the next 2-3 months.
With/Without motivation.
I am trying to find one, but can't.
and someone/something's just making me lose my focus every now and then.
great huh?


Crap always come at the moments of important events.

this time round,
im really in a very bad dilemma.



Give me a break.
I really wanna escape.

Inferiority kills.

hey hi hello.

nothing beats a day doing what you like and spending it through laughs and smiles(:



saturday was nice on me i would say.
spent the morning gg through some physics,
then it was badminton session with my mates at Singapore Poly.
It was one of my best day playing badminton i would say.
my strokes were all there.
the placing, the smashes, the net shots.
everything was great(:

and then,
dinner at queensway.
ABC plaza they call it.
it was a place similar to Serangoon Garden i would say.
lots of food, lots of choices.
without fail,
it was a splendid and totally fulfilling time trying to gorge myself full with all that food we ordered.


There were satay, chicken wings, noodles, po-piah, sugarcane juice etc etc.
to end things on a healthier note, a fruit platter was called for.
and i tell ya, the fruit platter is huge.
and that poor fella who bought it,
got all sorts of words flung at him from all his other friends there, which includes me! haha.
luckily there were 5 young *ahem* and healthy guys to clear off all that food.



and then he recounted the fruit-purchasing-encounter to us.

Him : "C'mon guys, i didn't knew it was that much! Initially, i chose only like 5 pieces in total."

Us : "ya right! so what's all this infront of us??"

Him : "the thing is.. when i was buying, then i asked the aunty "You think this's enough for 5 person?" and the aunty goes "AIYO! NO LAHS, COME , I HELP YOU PICK SOME MORE". "

Instantaneously, i shot back at him. ( now to think back, he was really a poor thing at that moment, lmao.)

Me : "EHS DUDE! that aunty is running a stall for god's sake! BUSINESS LEHH. YOU THINK SHE'LL TELL YOU IT'S ENOUGH? "

then guess what?
the rest sang in harmony with me. Peace!(:



and one last thing i remembered.
My mates and I totally made a name for ourselves on the MRT train.
we were laughing so hard at this joke that at different times all sorts of commuters were staring at us.
Even an indian uncle got interested, listened to us, then started smiling also!

shan't elaborate,
but the thing that thrown us on our back laughing was,
the translation of beancurd, or tofu, in myanmar's language.
Supposedly,
tofu was pronounced as "BEI-PIA".

chinese folks will understand this.
try forming all sorts of sentence with this, such as,
i want tofu.
replace tofu with the translation, lmao.




that's about it.
anyway, just a last piece of note for my mates out there.


Dudes, think about this.
Life's a play.
You are the director.
To turn it into just another plain old boring play,
or one that's full of turns and excitement,
it's your call.

and.
Opportunities are there for you, and there for you to create as well.
Do not reject all without even thinking.
Open up to different things,
and you'll see yourself in a whole new different setting.


ciaos!

and so.
another week has just passed like that.
which also means
im a week nearer to the big As.
preparation in the progress,
intensity need to increase by folds.





anyway,
changed the song playing.
have heard this song multiples times from fellow bloggers.
initially I couldn't appreciate it and thought it was merely just another song
but slowly im getting addicted to it.

got back resultsand
it's better left unsaid
overall,
the cohort wasn't really performing.
but if there are those few who can do so,
why couldn't I?

Let's let prelims and As be a totally different story all together.

life's been pretty much mundane recently.
with what will become a milestone in my life slowly creeping in on me,
have no choice but to strike off all the possible outings and activities on my list.
go for the minimum is all i can afford now.

that's life before A levels for a JC kid, remember that folks.



ohh yeah, just a note.
im pretty sure so far quite a number of students out there are kinda affected adversely by their results currently.

Remember.
Don't doubt yourself.
Confidence is a must.

I know it suck to be not performing up to standard or expectations,
but becoming doubtful of yourself and start to sink into what had happened,
it's not gonna help in anyway.

What's right, is to move on.
Further improve yourself, remove that fear and uncertainty residing in you.
That's what solve the problem


So much for the study side.



for those who really know me, it wasn't hard to notice I haven't been myself lately.
my heart is playing tricks on me.
Those who are single out there, i emphatize with you.
I know how it feels,
and it suck big time.


Again, have to constantly remind myself this ain't the right time.
Priorities should be straightened out.
but when your heart decides to go against you,
it's seriously not easy.
that special person,
she's really driving me nuts currently.

Friends who read this,
please try not to question me on this yeah.
greatly appreciated.



So, before i go,
2 short phrases for you guys.


Aim for the moon,
and you'll land among the starts.


Feelings are the most powerful thing on this earth.
It creates and destroys you.


Ciaos.

remember this.
in some ways,
the world is fair.


Everything has a price to be paid for.

the end, yet another start.

and so im back.
been just a short 2 days since my last post.
but since im kinda bored, so yeah, here im.




was out with my sec sch badminton mates ytd.
we had an awesome time, totally!(:
went to sentosa for some beach volleyball,
but then the courts were like full =.=.

i wonder how early the people get there just to get there courts?
so we end up just hitting around for an hour or so.
then we end up in the water.

ohh yeah,
i saw NY Student Council there!
the whole bunch of time,
what a coincidence ehs(:

and i saw someone totally unexpected too.
CG got a big shock when i told him.




after sentosa, we left for Vivo.
headed for pool, but was just a short 1 hour.
the rates are like nuts there.
12bucks/hour.
count themselves lucky that we have no other options to turn to, so we have to take up the crazy rate.

and guess what.
following up next after dinner,
was shopping.
haha, yeah, your eyes ain't playing tricks on you, i said shopping.
imagine 7 guys walking around in vivo shopping.
one word.
COOL~
hahaha.


we were actually looking for pullovers and jacket, or perhaps just anything nice.
but nothing seems to appeal to me =.=
went to shops like AX, Topman, Pull&Bear, River Island etc~
everytime, the prices never fail to make me go O.O!
after an hour plus of walking around,
we were like dead tired.
went out to the "fountain".

and that's when the sabotaging starts.
rmb how we used to pick the odd one out using the method "oh-beh-som", i.e black or white ( your palm faces up or down )?

we had that for 3 rounds.
and each round,
5-6 of us all agreed on a certain pattern.
and so the lucky one who was the odd one out,
had to run across the pillars of water shooting up.
it was really huge i tell you!

4 of my mates were lucky to get that treatment.
and i was the unlucky one, i was damn sad.
yeah right~
HAHAHA.


so, mre or less, that sums up my day ytd.
today,
it's back to work work work.
have a couple of things on my list.


Quantum Physics tut 1.
Proteins Tut.

damn it.
and gosh
i TOTALLY HATE the new timetable.
because of the friday arrangement for Week A.

WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND PUTS A LESSON AFTER A BREAK OR 2 HOURS OR MORE?

after that long break,
you think the students will still have the mood, the focus to go back to studying?
and when it's like 2 in the noon.
Hot and humid.

What a brilliant time-tabling committee.

no idea why
but i just feel so drained now.
not physically
but mentally.

sometimes,
i feel as if im living such a pointless life.

right now,
i just want a nice jug of beer,
a soothing and peaceful surroundings,
and time for me to relax and think...

ciaos.

Introducing the Duel of the week~





















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who will have the last laugh?



right.
im back from the mids.
glad to say im still alive.
but ain't glad waiting for the results.

not when you got teachers who go around disturbing you,
scaring the hell out of you by injecting all sorts of negative news.




been putting my brain on vacation mode for the past 2 days.
im in full support of giving it a good rest!

so now im left with 2 things to do to destress myself.

1) The two books i got ages ago from the library.

2) PSP, with newly installed games.




tough choice!
right?!
damn.


just something random.
im left with 2 months plus to prelims.
3 month or so to the Big As.
Fast huh?



but seriously.
i realised i becoming more and more, what us teens call no-life.
look at my usual school day routine.

wake up, go college, study, eat, more study, rest, sleep.

and there it goes over and over and over and over again.
i totally agree with you that it's sick!
but seriously i got not much choice left.
my mates are all mugging away.

YES RON, I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU!


but somehow,
i feel like im in a slightly better mood and situation as compared to previously.
let this carry on yeah.

and oh yeah.

i saw Person A once while walking to school today.
Person B twice at the atrium while going for QSE(:


before i graduate from the school,
there's something i MUST/DEFINITELY/HAVE TO/NO REASONS NOT TO do .
otherwise,
i know i'll regret it if i miss it.
c'mon,
i don't want regrets!



last but not least,
try taking this in.

We Live to love.
Learn to Love to live.
&
Don't stop playing because we got old.
We got old because we stop playing.



Cheers and ciaos!
(:

i camped in starbucks today for revision!
had a really HUGE cup of vanilla latte to curb my coffee addiction.(:
it tasted really good i swear.


did some stats practice,
but wasn't really effective without my notes around,
ain't v sure with all the keystrokes yet =.=
and my brain is just so saturated today.
no idea why.

3 more days to the end of MYE!
and the start of revision for Prelims.

yeah i know.
sad life.

that's a typical JC kid.
wait till I get this over and done with...

P.S : i'm totally digging that first song in my playlist now. Whatever it is by Zac Brown Band.

Simple yet nice lyrics.

just a quick one.

How many of you actually get a temp of 35.5 degrees+ usually?

none?

then i guess im not norm =.=

so far, i've been getting a reading of 35+ as my temp.

what's with that?

and yesterday when i was practically sweating like nuts after i reach the college school gate,

the guard took my temp and it only reads 36.6 degrees.

i swear i was sweating like nuts!

cold-blooded huh?

haha.

So anyway,

yesterday's plan was head down to the college for a short gymming session with my friend.

but then,

to our dismay ( or maybe excitement, HAHA, jkjk)

the vball girls were already there.

since it wasn't really nice for 2 guys to just walk in to a gym full of girls,

we decided to go off and grab our soya milk first.

when we got back, gym was locked-.-

how great.

wanted to play squash, but both courts were occupied.
double greatness.

in the end, we went off to AMK hub for a short 45 min pooling.

it's really great to play it again after not touching it for so long!

awesome(:

left to meet my badminton mates after pooling.

thought i was gonna be late.

yet i was earlier than them-.-

went on to SP to have our badminton session.

now,

after not playing sports or doing aerobic exercises for quite a period,

the few games of badminton nearly killed me =.=

no joke.

i guess it's because of the bad stomachache i have all along,

plus the huge amounts of "heaty" food i consumed lately,

but after like a few games,

i was seriously feeling just so lethargic.

and my shots ahs..

horrible man.

time to brush it up again.

but then again,

so many sports im interested in currently!

dinner followed up later on.

bath @ sp,

headed down to Jurong Point for some food.

you know what?

being out with a bunch of guys might not be so good sometimes.

for the fact that we're actually kinda casual ppl,

it took us like half an hour to decide where to eat.

and a further 15 min flipping through a 4-page menu.

HAHA.

but anyway,

we settled down in a Jap restaurant named Yaki Yakibo.

personally,

the food's not bad.

and the price's pretty reasonable too!

one more thing,

their chawanmushi (steam egg) is simply awesome!

rating of 5, i give it 5!

it's not like the norm restaurant whereby they prepared it in advance and serve you straight from the kitchen where they're keeping it warm.

this restaurant they prepared the chawanmushi right in front of you.

and gosh,

after you try the first one,

I bet you'll want to go for a second!

People,

do visit this restaurant if you have a chance!

ohh yeah, Andersen's Ice Cream rocks too!(:

Ciaos!

P.S : Anyway, something i picked up yesterday after a day of not so eventful things that happened to me.

It's not point mourning and groaning over bad stuffs that had happened, for that will just demoralise yourself and bring about more bad stuffs. Maintain a positive attitude and you'll see yourself smiling real soon(:

yes yes yes!
finally it's the last paper tmr!

the last paper...






for the week, lol.
finally a week of MYE's gonna be down.
no idea how well or how badly i've done.
not v confident of my answers ahs.
but nvm,
what's done is done.



after next week,
prelims up next.
follow by the big game.

4 more months..
4 more months and i'll be a free soul(:
4 more months later i shall party and rock my world away ((:

all the best everyone.
Ciaos!





P.S : What an unexpected place to see her today! hahaha.(: