it was seriously disappointing today.
to see how AWESOME the attendance was.

Let me make this clear first.
i'm NOT directing this particularly to anyone.




there were a few friends ( i suppose, at least i treat them as my friends),
which i was hopeful of them turning up.
and so,
it was apparent how things turn out huh.


People across the globe are saying how stressful Singapore's education system is,
how wonderful and professional it is,
but what's the point of all this education,
at the expense of having values,
at the expense of being a human?


stop kidding me when you say you need the time to study.
you're telling me you wake up 7am in the morning to study?
woah, i'm impressed.

for those who really did so, i give you the credits you deserved.



and i bet many will come to me and say,

"we don't show our gratitude only on occasions like this, we show the teachers how much we appreciate them during our normal school days, and of course, through the results we get."



so let's think,
even a short day like this,
a mere 1hour-at-most travelling,
plus a couple of hours in school you don't even bother to sacrifice,
then there you are telling me you make the effort to show your gratitude everyday?
woah.

and no doubt,
your good grades will be the teachers' best gifts,
but,
what pain can it cause,
what TREMENDOUS impact can it cause on your grades just for a day?



I don't dare to claim 100% that i know how the teachers' feel,
but i'm sure just be showing up in the morning,
it'll be a better day for them.
it's not easy to wake up that early just to get to school for all you know.

so, please,
even as we seek for higher level of education,
think back on this little acts of ours,
that have effects on others,
especially those who are in debt of.
and all the values our grandparents, our parents hold dear.

this that him her we us,
damn.


i've been losing my focus and all sorts of things filling up my mind.
it suck big time.


and for the past few days,
i felt good/worried/depressed/relax/stressed throughout,
it's like they got some sort of a queue ticket,
one coming after another,
or sometimes coming together.
all in all,
i'm feeling weird.

and that,
can't seem to make me study any better,
or in fact,
allow me to study effectively.
so you see,
i must have been missing out quite alot.
and that i can say,
is a very serious thing.

*sigh*



at times i'm just awed by those who are just so filled with confidence,
sure of every step they take,
firm on every decision they make.

I know it's only a matter of mentality and personality,
which pose as the greatest problems as well.

envy huh?
hell yeah, for me.

but i'll definitely leave that criteria in my long-term targets list.



moving on,
tomorrow marks the celebration of teachers' day!
followed by 3 days of leave till the first prelim paper, GP.
bless me on that.

time is seriously runnig short,
and i can't wait till the whole damn thing is over.
with the fact that at the end of every paper,
nothing but confidence overwhelms me.


damn it.
speak of academics and i'm feeling worried and pissed alr.
times there are i really wish to just leave here for good,
go to a place where i'm comfortable in,
and seek what i seek.
but,
the truth is just harsh and cold.

for now,
let's bury ourselves in the books and papers.

Ciaos.



P.S : I'm in desperate need of having a life. (interpret the way you want to.)

Little experiences accumulated everyday can make a BIG difference.



the big game is nearing.
will i emerge the winner?

Yes, i told myself.





all the best everyone.

also, on a bad note,
school is ending soon for the J2s.
The place we spent 2 most important years of our lives,
soon, we'll bid it goodbye.

The place we quarreled over our differences.
the place we fought over trivial matters and scolded how childish each other were.
the place we dislike so much now and then, credits to the every few weeks/months test/exams.


YET,

it is also the place we found each other and build friendships.
the place we saw each others' differences and help each other tide over difficulties.
the place we created 2 years worth of memories that will stay in us.


no matter how much had we once dislike someone, dislike that person who sits next to us, dislikes the person who walk next to us, dislike anyone ,
this is the time we'll put everything down and tell each other, thank you for being my friend.


Hatred/indifference/discrimination/prejudice, all are nothing but a vicious cycle.
It's funny,
how when i'm saying all this now,
it still is not reflected in my actions yet.
i know i've flawed,
so i shan't comment much anymore.

wish me luck on changing for the better.




What goes around, comes around.

Treat others how you want to be treated.
such simple values that hold,
but yet few paid attention to.


that's about it.
ciaos!

i particularly like this two phrases now.


Success is a science ; if you have the conditions, you get the results.

-Oscar Wilde



Talk is cheap, do what others can't.

damn.
this is no joke.
only 77 more days left.
god bless.




this has got to be the longest period i've nvr blog.
7 days.
ha-ha!

perhaps aft the prelims i might just go on hiatus.
till my big A's are over ehs.
im trying to grab every minute i can,
but apparently my body ain't listening to me huh.

falling asleep, feeling lethargic, feeling damn sick and s*ck.
Self-theraphy a.k.a self psychoing :
Mind over body, mind over body.
3 more months 3 more months!



this has got to be the weirdest period of all.
The time to A levels,
it seems so long yet so short.
can't wait for this stuff to be over.
free as a bird i'll be.

meanwhile,
more mugging awaits!

it's getting really stressful i tell you.
apart from academics all the other stuffs that hits me.




how i wish for some time to relax.
just sit down,
have a cup of nicely brewed coffee,
do nothing and let your mind work.

reminiscence about the old days,
picture yourself in the future with your perfect partner, with your kids.
get yourself ready for whatever's coming up.
take a deep breath and move on.



how i wish for a pillar of strength and support now.
im afraid i might just crumble.

gotta ciao.
work awaits.

Work hard folks!




P.S: Should i or should i not? i miss M like totally ):

no harm doing things you love.
in fact, it's what i hold dear.

Do things you love, or else you'll find life is such a bore.



but,
not when it's at the interest of others.

The great and successful,
are those who knows and are able to do what they love,
at the same time,
knows how to sacrifice it for a something greater,
and put others infront of him



In a way,
it reflects your maturity.


Take care folks.

back for a short post.
to those who're reading my blog.
here's a small thanks for you.


and im assure you it's real neat and good.

for those who feels their GP ain't good enough,
or you're lacking in arguments, p.o.v etc.
Go here.

http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/


It's a website set up by an invidual if i ain't wrong.
The site is frequently updated,
on issues that are prevailing and hot-on-discussion in Singapore.

The most recent update i found was really intriguing is the one on The Top 10 challenges the next generation of Singaporeans face.

The writer was right to point out another issue not mention by SM Goh.
Do take a look to find out what i meant.
http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/


To me,
it's good in a way that,
it does not just provide you with a normal go-with-the-flow p.o.v
it offer alternatives that can be used to an advantage in our GP essays.
but then again,
they are just plain p.o.v stated there.

You'll have to set up the arguments and seek out evidences yourself.
You can't expect it to be written like an essay there ehs?
But still,
it'll help expose us to an alternative view.


so, try it.
No guarantee that it's perfect,
it base solely on individual experience.
http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/


g2g.
take care folks.
ciaos!



P.S : It's bad and i know it. M's on my mind all the while in this really important period. How to focus? *sigh*

was looking through my archives earlier on.
things have really changed i guess.
from the words,
im able to recollect those feelings i had back then.
from within,
a tinge of happiness and joy could still be felt.

but ,
i can't feel that anymore.

i guess i just can't go back to being how i used to be anymore,
now that expectations are higher,
things are more complicated.


So, it's true then.

As people grows old,
they start to lose the child in them.


the world is fast.
time flies.
Earth doesn't stop spinning just for you.

it's time for a change.


If only time could be reversed,
and we can go back to the once carefree days again.

There are just too many if only..


If only she knows i feel for her.