9 days since i last post.
not a very long absence ehs.


First of all,
A lvls is getting so damn near.
you can literally say it's just round the corner.
the week after next will be my first paper, Math.
After that will be GP and all the other sciences' papers.
I'll be on a massacre.


After kicking the papers' asses,
i'll be free!
yes!
2 years of Junior College education will then be history.

All i can do is to look back and think,
"Such were the days of joy, laughter, tears and stress. 2 years of my teenage period spent in NYJC."

Time flies, seriously.
Especially when days like these you start counting to the start and the end of examinations,
you realise how fast each day is passing as you strike out the date on your calender every night.




Perhaps some stuffs i should have done back then during the graduation day,
but then, no point looking back now and regret.
Shall plan for what's ahead instead(:
all i could say is just that i really really miss her.

Last 33 days till i'm free!
Till then, take care folks.

if only someone could understand the meanings behind my actions.

graduation day today.
fun and sorrow,
all together at the same time.

it's always till the end we realise the goods and importance of those around us.
it's always till the end we learn to cherish.



that's being a human?
i wish i could be not so.





anyway,
my virgin golf trip to safra.
it was... fun(:


and oh yeah,
i'm seriously crazy/gaga/nuts over her.
totally i swear.
a never before feeling.
should i, should i not?

being together with her,
will be heaven on earth.

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*sigh*

Back with a post.
been posting pretty frequently.



was doing my chemistry papers earlier on when something on msn caught my attention.
One of my badminton seniors, from Nanyang, had just updated her blog.
She was my captain when i were playing as 1st year.

I gotta say,
she's a really wonderful leader, senior and friend.
The 1 year i had in the team with her was a really fruitful one.

it was a pretty bad year, with lots of conflicts and troubles,
but she stood by my friends and I, went through all of it with us.
A really nice person, someone i can vouch for anytime.



so anyway, read her post, and so it seems like it has something to do with yet another my senior.
It is a HER, who was in the same team as my ex-captain and I.
Let's just call my ex-captain and Y and her as X.

On that post, Y was recounting how she had spent the mooncake festival night with X.
Then, it was when she jotted down, X is now in a downturn in her life.
(Anyway, i'm not 100% sure it's X, but from the names and descriptions, I'm 80% positive. )

Apparently, X and Y are having a not so good time in university.
They happen to be in the same course for now, for the first year.
X is being misunderstood by her uni-mates and it was Y she turned to.
Yet, she was afraid to go to Y at the same time,
afraid of troubling Y when the schedule and day is already so tiring.
It didn't took long for Y to realise how X felt.

so, that's the outline more or less.



What really made me silent isn't anything else,
but how the bond is between X and Y and between everyone else.


No 2 person in the world thinks in exactly the same frequency.
What you want, might not be what the other person wants.
What you thought was alright, might be offending to another person.
Situations like these often manifested into huge misunderstandings and these not only happen between friends, but within families as well.


Think about this.
How many times had your mum/dad did something and you really don't like it?
I'm pretty sure you'll be ready to start off a list.
Now, think about.
Had it been a bit too rash with your thoughts/actions back then?

Now, think about this.
How strong exactly, are the bonds between you and your family, and your friends?

Like what i've read off a GP essay,

The greatest challenge poised today,
is nothing but the weakest link amongst humans.


Like gold,
if you spend time taking care of all the relationships and bonds,'
it'll shine like the brightest start.
Leave it alone,
it starts to dull.

Gotta go.
but before that,
Thank you, Y.
You've given me yet another great lesson.

oh crap.
i'm in middle of this losing-my-momentum crap again.
lose all the mood and will to study.



but then,
things turn scary
when I start looking at this world now again,
and realise now it's nothing but full of realists.
for that,
it'll be really stupid if i am to stop now.




so many things i wanna do,
so many things i wanna fulfil,
but i guess all that have to wait,
till 51 days later.

damn.
im just feeling so crappy.

sudden urge to post.
a short breakaway from my studies.

As are coming,
about a month left.
unlike Os,
this time round,
it's either make it or break it.


anyway,
reason for me being here is that i was lamenting about how mundane my life has been!
disregarding my baby and kiddo years,
I've like 6 years on the list and for god's sake,
the 6 years I've done nothing much great,
nothing much worth a pat on my back.

and hell,
look about the other 18s and 19s out there,
some are on their road to success, fame and what they seek.
big contrast huh,
that's me.



Like what i've always heard,
Life is short, live with no regrets.

perhaps i don't have any major regrets top on my chart now,
but there are still many little little things i wish i could have a second go at it.
Like studied harder in the past,
or maybe should have train myself in other areas of sports rather than badminton etc etc.

How about you?


I've my targets all mapped out in my mind,
but i'm just not putting enough actions into it right now.
i know i will not be contented to be just a nobody,
or one with an average life just like anyone else,
so i seek to have a different route from everyone else.

I ain't 100% sure that things will turn out 100% the way i want it,
but i know for sure i'll try to do whatever i can to get to where i want.

How about you?


take a moment to think about it yeah(:
18 years have gone past like that.
I can't afford another 18 years of such.

gotta go for now.
i don't have the luxury of time now ehs.
happy mugging peeps!

After that miles and miles of run,
finally all's left is the last 100m.
Fatigue is eating into me,
and i could feel the cool air brushing past me,
rushing into my lungs as I start to give way.

yet i could see that end point not too far away.

hundreds and hundreds of competitors now running beside me,
with nothing but determination and desire in their eyes, as they focus their sight on the finishing line.

"No way i'm giving up now and giving up to them!" i thought.

I gritted my teeth and focus at my target once more.
My pace accelerates even as my legs scream in pain.

Soon,
soon all this will be over.

Once again,
i feel that adrenaline burst in me.
I'm gonna win no matter what.


Everything's coming to an end soon.
treasure.
Leave no regrets, in any way.
I'm trying hard.


After the end line,
what lies in store for me?
Will I have then have what i wish for?
Will I be at a crossroad?
Heaven knows.

think i'm getting old and all.
i have the problems of aching shoulders and backache.
mind you,
it happens regularly.

been surviving on salonpas.


2 more months and i shall wave goodbye to JC.

just that sentence.



thank you,
you've made my day
be it unconciously or not.


much misses.