thatpracperfectionist-yongliang.blogspot.com

2009-11-04T00:42:00.001+08:00

time for a change.
post here shall cease for a period.

hop on to
www.kwalker.tumblr.com.

my new arena(:

2009-11-03T20:20:00.002+08:00

it's amazing how some people have such great mastery and so fluent with words.
Even though it's just yet another simple post of the daily happenings,
it's just captivating.

im in awe seriously.
If only i have such command of the words,
i could have gone on and on.
it just feel nice reading such great pieces of work(:

Been pondering over the thought of switching to tumblr,
and make my site known to all.
should i?

2009-11-02T01:21:00.001+08:00

no matter how hard i've tried to focus
no matter how many times i've told myself
it just keeps happening.
it just keeps coming back.

2009-10-29T22:40:00.003+08:00

9 days since i last post.
not a very long absence ehs.

First of all,
A lvls is getting so damn near.
you can literally say it's just round the corner.
the week after next will be my first paper, Math.
After that will be GP and all the other sciences' papers.
I'll be on a massacre.

After kicking the papers' asses,
i'll be free!
yes!
2 years of Junior College education will then be history.

All i can do is to look back and think,
"Such were the days of joy, laughter, tears and stress. 2 years of my teenage period spent in NYJC."

Time flies, seriously.
Especially when days like these you start counting to the start and the end of examinations,
you realise how fast each day is passing as you strike out the date on your calender every night.

Perhaps some stuffs i should have done back then during the graduation day,
but then, no point looking back now and regret.
Shall plan for what's ahead instead(:
all i could say is just that i really really miss her.

Last 33 days till i'm free!
Till then, take care folks.

2009-10-20T22:36:00.001+08:00

if only someone could understand the meanings behind my actions.

2009-10-16T19:26:00.003+08:00

graduation day today.
fun and sorrow,
all together at the same time.

it's always till the end we realise the goods and importance of those around us.
it's always till the end we learn to cherish.

that's being a human?
i wish i could be not so.

anyway,
my virgin golf trip to safra.
it was... fun(:

and oh yeah,
i'm seriously crazy/gaga/nuts over her.
totally i swear.
a never before feeling.
should i, should i not?

being together with her,
will be heaven on earth.

2009-10-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

243795 836, 968 4283 66 4332 469 6824 4 84465 22688 968!

*sigh*

2009-10-10T17:03:00.003+08:00

Back with a post.
been posting pretty frequently.

was doing my chemistry papers earlier on when something on msn caught my attention.
One of my badminton seniors, from Nanyang, had just updated her blog.
She was my captain when i were playing as 1st year.

I gotta say,
she's a really wonderful leader, senior and friend.
The 1 year i had in the team with her was a really fruitful one.

it was a pretty bad year, with lots of conflicts and troubles,
but she stood by my friends and I, went through all of it with us.
A really nice person, someone i can vouch for anytime.

so anyway, read her post, and so it seems like it has something to do with yet another my senior.
It is a HER, who was in the same team as my ex-captain and I.
Let's just call my ex-captain and Y and her as X.

On that post, Y was recounting how she had spent the mooncake festival night with X.
Then, it was when she jotted down, X is now in a downturn in her life.
(Anyway, i'm not 100% sure it's X, but from the names and descriptions, I'm 80% positive. )

Apparently, X and Y are having a not so good time in university.
They happen to be in the same course for now, for the first year.
X is being misunderstood by her uni-mates and it was Y she turned to.
Yet, she was afraid to go to Y at the same time,
afraid of troubling Y when the schedule and day is already so tiring.
It didn't took long for Y to realise how X felt.

so, that's the outline more or less.

What really made me silent isn't anything else,
but how the bond is between X and Y and between everyone else.

No 2 person in the world thinks in exactly the same frequency.
What you want, might not be what the other person wants.
What you thought was alright, might be offending to another person.
Situations like these often manifested into huge misunderstandings and these not only happen between friends, but within families as well.

Think about this.
How many times had your mum/dad did something and you really don't like it?
I'm pretty sure you'll be ready to start off a list.
Now, think about.
Had it been a bit too rash with your thoughts/actions back then?

Now, think about this.
How strong exactly, are the bonds between you and your family, and your friends?

Like what i've read off a GP essay,

The greatest challenge poised today,
is nothing but the weakest link amongst humans.

Like gold,
if you spend time taking care of all the relationships and bonds,'
it'll shine like the brightest start.
Leave it alone,
it starts to dull.

Gotta go.
but before that,
Thank you, Y.
You've given me yet another great lesson.

2009-10-10T14:33:00.002+08:00

oh crap.
i'm in middle of this losing-my-momentum crap again.
lose all the mood and will to study.

but then,
things turn scary
when I start looking at this world now again,
and realise now it's nothing but full of realists.
for that,
it'll be really stupid if i am to stop now.

so many things i wanna do,
so many things i wanna fulfil,
but i guess all that have to wait,
till 51 days later.

damn.
im just feeling so crappy.

2009-10-07T22:01:00.003+08:00

sudden urge to post.
a short breakaway from my studies.

As are coming,
about a month left.
unlike Os,
this time round,
it's either make it or break it.

anyway,
reason for me being here is that i was lamenting about how mundane my life has been!
disregarding my baby and kiddo years,
I've like 6 years on the list and for god's sake,
the 6 years I've done nothing much great,
nothing much worth a pat on my back.

and hell,
look about the other 18s and 19s out there,
some are on their road to success, fame and what they seek.
big contrast huh,
that's me.

Like what i've always heard,
Life is short, live with no regrets.

perhaps i don't have any major regrets top on my chart now,
but there are still many little little things i wish i could have a second go at it.
Like studied harder in the past,
or maybe should have train myself in other areas of sports rather than badminton etc etc.

How about you?

I've my targets all mapped out in my mind,
but i'm just not putting enough actions into it right now.
i know i will not be contented to be just a nobody,
or one with an average life just like anyone else,
so i seek to have a different route from everyone else.

I ain't 100% sure that things will turn out 100% the way i want it,
but i know for sure i'll try to do whatever i can to get to where i want.

How about you?

take a moment to think about it yeah(:
18 years have gone past like that.
I can't afford another 18 years of such.

gotta go for now.
i don't have the luxury of time now ehs.
happy mugging peeps!

2009-10-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

After that miles and miles of run,
finally all's left is the last 100m.
Fatigue is eating into me,
and i could feel the cool air brushing past me,
rushing into my lungs as I start to give way.

yet i could see that end point not too far away.

hundreds and hundreds of competitors now running beside me,
with nothing but determination and desire in their eyes, as they focus their sight on the finishing line.

"No way i'm giving up now and giving up to them!" i thought.

I gritted my teeth and focus at my target once more.
My pace accelerates even as my legs scream in pain.

Soon,
soon all this will be over.

Once again,
i feel that adrenaline burst in me.
I'm gonna win no matter what.

Everything's coming to an end soon.
treasure.
Leave no regrets, in any way.
I'm trying hard.

After the end line,
what lies in store for me?
Will I have then have what i wish for?
Will I be at a crossroad?
Heaven knows.

2009-10-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

think i'm getting old and all.
i have the problems of aching shoulders and backache.
mind you,
it happens regularly.

been surviving on salonpas.

2 more months and i shall wave goodbye to JC.

2009-10-01T23:15:00.002+08:00

just that sentence.

thank you,
you've made my day
be it unconciously or not.

much misses.

2009-09-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

had a weird dream yesterday night.
but it was nice, and sweet(:

at least,
it left me smiling when i woke up,
and gave me hopes again.
something i've not experienced for so long..

at that moment,
i seriously wished i had not woken up.
everything in it was so perfect.
so ideal.
so blissful.

P.S : i seriously think mind reading is so damn cool. i wish i possess that power. darn.

2009-09-21T22:35:00.003+08:00

humans are really ironic.

things we should abstain from,
we go for it.

things we should go for,
we hold back.

When we don't have it,
we wish all the time we can have it.

When we have it,
we take it for granted.

Human nature?
i guess so.

at some instances,
i don't want to be so human.

2009-09-20T00:11:00.003+08:00

greetings.
to whoever that happen to pass by this page.
no idea who still bothers to come here now ehs.
for the students,
it's like the "peak" period now.

Sec 4, J1, J2..
you name it, you got it.

*sigh*
nowadays,
it somehow feels like a bad sign whenever i come by to post smth up.
been for such a long period,
this place has always been my "outlet" for all my frustations/sorrows/unhappiness etc etc.
been such a long time positivity is not around.

hell yeah,
it's pathetic.

seriously,
I really don't like how things are like now.
not the the extent of hating,
but still, it's really causing me some really bad pain.

I feel like i'm nothing but an empty shell now.
yes, i've been trying to pour all the knowledge into my brain,
to get myself all ready and suit up for the big As,
but psychologically,
or maybe spiritually,
i just don't feel right.

in simpler terms,
I feel lost.
(yeah i know it's cliché, thanks if you sniggered just now.)

i know i've felt this before,
but i don't know if it was this bad previously.
do you know how it feels?
i mean seriously.
try imagining this.

like any other day,
you carry on your day with your normal schedule.
like maybe if you're a student,
you go to college, study, catching up with some friends, walk around the school looking at all the hunks and babes.
but,
while doing all these stuff,
you just don't have any particular strong feelings or to say, any particular feelings about it.
you're doing just for the sake of doing.
you feel nothing!

now, how does that sound?
well, that's what i'm gg through.
fun huh?

i don't know what's wrong.
err, ok, correction.
maybe i do know what's wrong,
but i just can't face up to it now.
what's bugging me has been bugging me for a long time.

something i have never managed to separate myself from,
and i've no idea when will i be able to do so.
soon i hope though, soon.

those who know me probably have an idea by now what am i talking about.
try figuring out if you have not.

you know what,
it's always so easy to help others,
to pull them out of whatever they are in,
and lend them a helping hand.

but any idea how hard it is to help yourself?
perhaps it's just me.

how nice it is,
for me to handle all this complexity.

i wish to go on,
but just can't seem to find the words to carry one anymore.
it's just hard to describe.
maybe it's about time for me to lie down on my bed and let some thinking run through.

if you're bored,
try this.

Look through your archives.
how do you feel?

for me,
how i wish i can have the joy in those days.

oh,
and how nice it will be,
if only i can look into the future.

who exactly will i be?

2009-09-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

when you know you're losing out,
work doubly hard to put yourself back on even ground.
It's a practical world after all.

there are always multiple solutions to a problem,
just like how multiple perspectives one can developed on an event.
When Plan A doesn't work, go for Plan B.
the point is, don't forget what is your final goal,
so as long you reach there,
give yourself a pat on the back.
but remember, keep your conscience clear.

Lastly,
to be a great man doesn't require you to do a lot of right things.
Just do that few great things you'll come across,
commit less wrongs,
and when you committed it,
admit humbly and seek to resolve.
ciaos!

2009-09-11T21:26:00.003+08:00

Friendship is like gold.
Leave it there and it gets dull.
Polish it well and frequent enough,
it shines like a piece of dazzling star.

How hard is it to make that one call?

so who are my friends?

2009-09-10T22:16:00.002+08:00

backed for posting.
now that i've changed my url,
i've totally got no idea who visits this site anymore.
or perhaps no visits at all?
hmm.

so anyway,
spent the day mugging again.
yeah, so typical of me now.
what to do?
with prelims and A level come knocking on your doors,
you'll want yourself to be as prepared as possible ehs.

just wait till this is over,
and i'll show you how crazy can i be! =D

so anyway,
i was part daydreaming part reflecting just now ( i told you i'll come up with something soon didn't i )

so.
i was thinking back then,
too many of us have been living in our comfort zone ehs.
i mean,
look, we've so much gadgets available to us in the market,
each capable of changing our lives for the better.
then guess what.
we start to get use to all this,
taking it for granted and gradually, degrading.

perhaps,
mentally we've evolved to be much more superior than before,
but physically,
i don't think so.
V simply, just look at obesity rate.

Years ago, only the rich were obese.
Now, it's becoming a rising trend in KIDS,
which led me to think of my Prelim GP essay qn i did.

Life today for children have never been better.

we've been living in comfort for too long.
It's about them we move out,
and challenge ourselves.
Staying in your comfort zone you'll never be able to improve yourself.
constantly doing what you're familiar and good with,
so what if you master it?
it's still the same thing you're doing.

see those who succeed and those who don't.
what the latter lack,
is the determination and courage to leap out of their comfort zones.
so forever they are trapped within it.

go through the hardship
go through the obstacles
and i dare assure you,
you'll be rewarded.

what i've said above may sound cliché,
it may sound simple,
it may sound normal,
but i daresay
8 out of 10 will not be able to put that into their action.

will be you that unique 2?
or the majority 8?

2009-09-09T21:15:00.002+08:00

a phrase i managed to pick up somewhere.

I trust everyone.
I just don't trust the devil in them.

it's true.
infer it yourself(:

anw,
it's time to gear up,
and charge.

work hard peeps.

Knowing you,
is a sweet torture.

2009-09-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

damn!
prelims and A levels are so taking my life away!
can't do anything but mug.
hell lot worse than O levels i tell you.

trying imagining this.
if you're in my year,
2 years ago you'll be screaming,
"damn the O levels!"

now,
you'll be saying,
"Screw! I wish i can take O levels again instead of A levels!"

Fun ehs?

ohh yeah, forgot to add smth.
Prelims and A levels are taking my life away.
_ _ _ _ _ _ is taking all my focus away!
perhaps i don't know her well enough yet,
but right now, she's just like a fallen angel to me,
no joke.

gotta get back to studying soon.
Sorry about the lack of those really weird and sentimental periods i have,
when i'll post up some issues which made me think alot about,
and might be thought provoking to some of you.
I'm lacking the time to really reflect on my everyday life now to think of such issues.
and and,
i'm getting sentimental and emotional all over this girl c _ _ _ _ _,
and i guess nobody will be interested to look at my post when it's few pages long,
but all about her right.

yeah i feel you man~

but but but,
i guess i'll be writing on something soon enough.
some stuffs have been bugging me.
so yeah,
stay tuned.

Till then,
ciaos and takecare!

P.S : ohh yeah, i do miss her like crazy.

2009-09-05T21:56:00.002+08:00

it feels good to really play your hearts out after so long.
gotta admit i still pretty much like badminton huh(:

and it's really maddening for the fact that
_ _ _ _ _ _ just keep on popping into my head every now and then.
can't believe i'm slowly starting to show a change because of _ _ _ _ _ _.
those who don't know me well enough will not understand what i say ehs.
i'm gg nuts!

gotta continue my mugging starting tomorrow.
Time's tight and lots of "compensation" to be done!
and and, i totally can't wait for A levels to be over and gone,
then i can put in no-matter-how-much-time-and-effort is needed to go for _ _ _ _ _ _.
yes,
i know i'm crazy now.

2009-09-02T20:28:00.002+08:00

can't believe i'm getting lost and all distracted at this point of time.
i need a hand,
to pull me out of all this crap.

a ray of hope and light,
to guide me through all these uncertainty and doubts i'm facing.

ever felt you just can't seem to find the right out to depict your emotions?
guess what.
that's happening to me.

2009-09-01T23:42:00.002+08:00

learn the hard way,
thus we shall remember.

a dancing angel in white. mesmerized i was.

2009-08-31T14:42:00.003+08:00

it was seriously disappointing today.
to see how AWESOME the attendance was.

Let me make this clear first.
i'm NOT directing this particularly to anyone.

there were a few friends ( i suppose, at least i treat them as my friends),
which i was hopeful of them turning up.
and so,
it was apparent how things turn out huh.

People across the globe are saying how stressful Singapore's education system is,
how wonderful and professional it is,
but what's the point of all this education,
at the expense of having values,
at the expense of being a human?

stop kidding me when you say you need the time to study.
you're telling me you wake up 7am in the morning to study?
woah, i'm impressed.

for those who really did so, i give you the credits you deserved.

and i bet many will come to me and say,

"we don't show our gratitude only on occasions like this, we show the teachers how much we appreciate them during our normal school days, and of course, through the results we get."

so let's think,
even a short day like this,
a mere 1hour-at-most travelling,
plus a couple of hours in school you don't even bother to sacrifice,
then there you are telling me you make the effort to show your gratitude everyday?
woah.

and no doubt,
your good grades will be the teachers' best gifts,
but,
what pain can it cause,
what TREMENDOUS impact can it cause on your grades just for a day?

I don't dare to claim 100% that i know how the teachers' feel,
but i'm sure just be showing up in the morning,
it'll be a better day for them.
it's not easy to wake up that early just to get to school for all you know.

so, please,
even as we seek for higher level of education,
think back on this little acts of ours,
that have effects on others,
especially those who are in debt of.
and all the values our grandparents, our parents hold dear.

2009-08-30T21:48:00.002+08:00

this that him her we us,
damn.

i've been losing my focus and all sorts of things filling up my mind.
it suck big time.

and for the past few days,
i felt good/worried/depressed/relax/stressed throughout,
it's like they got some sort of a queue ticket,
one coming after another,
or sometimes coming together.
all in all,
i'm feeling weird.

and that,
can't seem to make me study any better,
or in fact,
allow me to study effectively.
so you see,
i must have been missing out quite alot.
and that i can say,
is a very serious thing.

*sigh*

at times i'm just awed by those who are just so filled with confidence,
sure of every step they take,
firm on every decision they make.

I know it's only a matter of mentality and personality,
which pose as the greatest problems as well.

envy huh?
hell yeah, for me.

but i'll definitely leave that criteria in my long-term targets list.

moving on,
tomorrow marks the celebration of teachers' day!
followed by 3 days of leave till the first prelim paper, GP.
bless me on that.

time is seriously runnig short,
and i can't wait till the whole damn thing is over.
with the fact that at the end of every paper,
nothing but confidence overwhelms me.

damn it.
speak of academics and i'm feeling worried and pissed alr.
times there are i really wish to just leave here for good,
go to a place where i'm comfortable in,
and seek what i seek.
but,
the truth is just harsh and cold.

for now,
let's bury ourselves in the books and papers.

Ciaos.

P.S : I'm in desperate need of having a life. (interpret the way you want to.)

2009-08-25T20:10:00.002+08:00

Little experiences accumulated everyday can make a BIG difference.

the big game is nearing.
will i emerge the winner?

Yes, i told myself.

all the best everyone.

also, on a bad note,
school is ending soon for the J2s.
The place we spent 2 most important years of our lives,
soon, we'll bid it goodbye.

The place we quarreled over our differences.
the place we fought over trivial matters and scolded how childish each other were.
the place we dislike so much now and then, credits to the every few weeks/months test/exams.

YET,

it is also the place we found each other and build friendships.
the place we saw each others' differences and help each other tide over difficulties.
the place we created 2 years worth of memories that will stay in us.

no matter how much had we once dislike someone, dislike that person who sits next to us, dislikes the person who walk next to us, dislike anyone ,
this is the time we'll put everything down and tell each other, thank you for being my friend.

Hatred/indifference/discrimination/prejudice, all are nothing but a vicious cycle.
It's funny,
how when i'm saying all this now,
it still is not reflected in my actions yet.
i know i've flawed,
so i shan't comment much anymore.

wish me luck on changing for the better.

What goes around, comes around.

Treat others how you want to be treated.
such simple values that hold,
but yet few paid attention to.

that's about it.
ciaos!

2009-08-18T20:24:00.001+08:00

i particularly like this two phrases now.

Success is a science ; if you have the conditions, you get the results.

-Oscar Wilde

Talk is cheap, do what others can't.

2009-08-15T23:00:00.002+08:00

damn.
this is no joke.
only 77 more days left.
god bless.

this has got to be the longest period i've nvr blog.
7 days.
ha-ha!

perhaps aft the prelims i might just go on hiatus.
till my big A's are over ehs.
im trying to grab every minute i can,
but apparently my body ain't listening to me huh.

falling asleep, feeling lethargic, feeling damn sick and s*ck.
Self-theraphy a.k.a self psychoing :
Mind over body, mind over body.
3 more months 3 more months!

this has got to be the weirdest period of all.
The time to A levels,
it seems so long yet so short.
can't wait for this stuff to be over.
free as a bird i'll be.

meanwhile,
more mugging awaits!

it's getting really stressful i tell you.
apart from academics all the other stuffs that hits me.

how i wish for some time to relax.
just sit down,
have a cup of nicely brewed coffee,
do nothing and let your mind work.

reminiscence about the old days,
picture yourself in the future with your perfect partner, with your kids.
get yourself ready for whatever's coming up.
take a deep breath and move on.

how i wish for a pillar of strength and support now.
im afraid i might just crumble.

gotta ciao.
work awaits.

Work hard folks!

P.S: Should i or should i not? i miss M like totally ):

2009-08-09T23:39:00.002+08:00

no harm doing things you love.
in fact, it's what i hold dear.

Do things you love, or else you'll find life is such a bore.

but,
not when it's at the interest of others.

The great and successful,
are those who knows and are able to do what they love,
at the same time,
knows how to sacrifice it for a something greater,
and put others infront of him

In a way,
it reflects your maturity.

Take care folks.

2009-08-07T22:23:00.003+08:00

back for a short post.
to those who're reading my blog.
here's a small thanks for you.

and im assure you it's real neat and good.

for those who feels their GP ain't good enough,
or you're lacking in arguments, p.o.v etc.
Go here.

http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/

It's a website set up by an invidual if i ain't wrong.
The site is frequently updated,
on issues that are prevailing and hot-on-discussion in Singapore.

The most recent update i found was really intriguing is the one on The Top 10 challenges the next generation of Singaporeans face.

The writer was right to point out another issue not mention by SM Goh.
Do take a look to find out what i meant.
http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/

To me,
it's good in a way that,
it does not just provide you with a normal go-with-the-flow p.o.v
it offer alternatives that can be used to an advantage in our GP essays.
but then again,
they are just plain p.o.v stated there.

You'll have to set up the arguments and seek out evidences yourself.
You can't expect it to be written like an essay there ehs?
But still,
it'll help expose us to an alternative view.

so, try it.
No guarantee that it's perfect,
it base solely on individual experience.
http://singaporemind.blogspot.com/

g2g.
take care folks.
ciaos!

P.S : It's bad and i know it. M's on my mind all the while in this really important period. How to focus? *sigh*

2009-08-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

was looking through my archives earlier on.
things have really changed i guess.
from the words,
im able to recollect those feelings i had back then.
from within,
a tinge of happiness and joy could still be felt.

but ,
i can't feel that anymore.

i guess i just can't go back to being how i used to be anymore,
now that expectations are higher,
things are more complicated.

So, it's true then.

As people grows old,
they start to lose the child in them.

the world is fast.
time flies.
Earth doesn't stop spinning just for you.

it's time for a change.

If only time could be reversed,
and we can go back to the once carefree days again.

There are just too many if only..

If only she knows i feel for her.

2009-07-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

Disappointment.

2009-07-28T20:22:00.002+08:00

backed again for a quick update.

i just realised.
at times i seriously feel like my life is so screwed up.
Have i really lived my life for the 17 years+ so far?

i wonder.

reality is harsh.
it always is.

For a mere piece of paper,
we have to slog our 2 years away, in distress and pressure.
For a mere piece of paper,
we have to give up what we like to do best just to slog for that paper.
Now,
that's reality for now.

Definitely, we have progressed far from what we used to be.
look at all the possible lavish lifestyles one can have.
but that came for a price.

Look at how we're working today as compared to the past generations.
that's the price.

No matter how much i hate it,
I have to continue slogging for the next 2-3 months.
With/Without motivation.
I am trying to find one, but can't.
and someone/something's just making me lose my focus every now and then.
great huh?

Crap always come at the moments of important events.

this time round,
im really in a very bad dilemma.

Give me a break.
I really wanna escape.

2009-07-25T19:20:00.001+08:00

Inferiority kills.

2009-07-19T15:41:00.002+08:00

hey hi hello.

nothing beats a day doing what you like and spending it through laughs and smiles(:

saturday was nice on me i would say.
spent the morning gg through some physics,
then it was badminton session with my mates at Singapore Poly.
It was one of my best day playing badminton i would say.
my strokes were all there.
the placing, the smashes, the net shots.
everything was great(:

and then,
dinner at queensway.
ABC plaza they call it.
it was a place similar to Serangoon Garden i would say.
lots of food, lots of choices.
without fail,
it was a splendid and totally fulfilling time trying to gorge myself full with all that food we ordered.

There were satay, chicken wings, noodles, po-piah, sugarcane juice etc etc.
to end things on a healthier note, a fruit platter was called for.
and i tell ya, the fruit platter is huge.
and that poor fella who bought it,
got all sorts of words flung at him from all his other friends there, which includes me! haha.
luckily there were 5 young *ahem* and healthy guys to clear off all that food.

and then he recounted the fruit-purchasing-encounter to us.

Him : "C'mon guys, i didn't knew it was that much! Initially, i chose only like 5 pieces in total."

Us : "ya right! so what's all this infront of us??"

Him : "the thing is.. when i was buying, then i asked the aunty "You think this's enough for 5 person?" and the aunty goes "AIYO! NO LAHS, COME , I HELP YOU PICK SOME MORE". "

Instantaneously, i shot back at him. ( now to think back, he was really a poor thing at that moment, lmao.)

Me : "EHS DUDE! that aunty is running a stall for god's sake! BUSINESS LEHH. YOU THINK SHE'LL TELL YOU IT'S ENOUGH? "

then guess what?
the rest sang in harmony with me. Peace!(:

and one last thing i remembered.
My mates and I totally made a name for ourselves on the MRT train.
we were laughing so hard at this joke that at different times all sorts of commuters were staring at us.
Even an indian uncle got interested, listened to us, then started smiling also!

shan't elaborate,
but the thing that thrown us on our back laughing was,
the translation of beancurd, or tofu, in myanmar's language.
Supposedly,
tofu was pronounced as "BEI-PIA".

chinese folks will understand this.
try forming all sorts of sentence with this, such as,
i want tofu.
replace tofu with the translation, lmao.

that's about it.
anyway, just a last piece of note for my mates out there.

Dudes, think about this.
Life's a play.
You are the director.
To turn it into just another plain old boring play,
or one that's full of turns and excitement,
it's your call.

and.
Opportunities are there for you, and there for you to create as well.
Do not reject all without even thinking.
Open up to different things,
and you'll see yourself in a whole new different setting.

ciaos!

2009-07-17T20:54:00.002+08:00

and so.
another week has just passed like that.
which also means
im a week nearer to the big As.
preparation in the progress,
intensity need to increase by folds.

anyway,
changed the song playing.
have heard this song multiples times from fellow bloggers.
initially I couldn't appreciate it and thought it was merely just another song
but slowly im getting addicted to it.

got back resultsand
it's better left unsaid
overall,
the cohort wasn't really performing.
but if there are those few who can do so,
why couldn't I?

Let's let prelims and As be a totally different story all together.

life's been pretty much mundane recently.
with what will become a milestone in my life slowly creeping in on me,
have no choice but to strike off all the possible outings and activities on my list.
go for the minimum is all i can afford now.

that's life before A levels for a JC kid, remember that folks.

ohh yeah, just a note.
im pretty sure so far quite a number of students out there are kinda affected adversely by their results currently.

Remember.
Don't doubt yourself.
Confidence is a must.

I know it suck to be not performing up to standard or expectations,
but becoming doubtful of yourself and start to sink into what had happened,
it's not gonna help in anyway.

What's right, is to move on.
Further improve yourself, remove that fear and uncertainty residing in you.
That's what solve the problem

So much for the study side.

for those who really know me, it wasn't hard to notice I haven't been myself lately.
my heart is playing tricks on me.
Those who are single out there, i emphatize with you.
I know how it feels,
and it suck big time.

Again, have to constantly remind myself this ain't the right time.
Priorities should be straightened out.
but when your heart decides to go against you,
it's seriously not easy.
that special person,
she's really driving me nuts currently.

Friends who read this,
please try not to question me on this yeah.
greatly appreciated.

So, before i go,
2 short phrases for you guys.

Aim for the moon,
and you'll land among the starts.

Feelings are the most powerful thing on this earth.
It creates and destroys you.

Ciaos.

2009-07-13T18:15:00.001+08:00

remember this.
in some ways,
the world is fair.

Everything has a price to be paid for.

the end, yet another start.

2009-07-12T13:11:00.003+08:00

and so im back.
been just a short 2 days since my last post.
but since im kinda bored, so yeah, here im.

was out with my sec sch badminton mates ytd.
we had an awesome time, totally!(:
went to sentosa for some beach volleyball,
but then the courts were like full =.=.

i wonder how early the people get there just to get there courts?
so we end up just hitting around for an hour or so.
then we end up in the water.

ohh yeah,
i saw NY Student Council there!
the whole bunch of time,
what a coincidence ehs(:

and i saw someone totally unexpected too.
CG got a big shock when i told him.

after sentosa, we left for Vivo.
headed for pool, but was just a short 1 hour.
the rates are like nuts there.
12bucks/hour.
count themselves lucky that we have no other options to turn to, so we have to take up the crazy rate.

and guess what.
following up next after dinner,
was shopping.
haha, yeah, your eyes ain't playing tricks on you, i said shopping.
imagine 7 guys walking around in vivo shopping.
one word.
COOL~
hahaha.

we were actually looking for pullovers and jacket, or perhaps just anything nice.
but nothing seems to appeal to me =.=
went to shops like AX, Topman, Pull&Bear, River Island etc~
everytime, the prices never fail to make me go O.O!
after an hour plus of walking around,
we were like dead tired.
went out to the "fountain".

and that's when the sabotaging starts.
rmb how we used to pick the odd one out using the method "oh-beh-som", i.e black or white ( your palm faces up or down )?

we had that for 3 rounds.
and each round,
5-6 of us all agreed on a certain pattern.
and so the lucky one who was the odd one out,
had to run across the pillars of water shooting up.
it was really huge i tell you!

4 of my mates were lucky to get that treatment.
and i was the unlucky one, i was damn sad.
yeah right~
HAHAHA.

so, mre or less, that sums up my day ytd.
today,
it's back to work work work.
have a couple of things on my list.

Quantum Physics tut 1.
Proteins Tut.

damn it.
and gosh
i TOTALLY HATE the new timetable.
because of the friday arrangement for Week A.

WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND PUTS A LESSON AFTER A BREAK OR 2 HOURS OR MORE?

after that long break,
you think the students will still have the mood, the focus to go back to studying?
and when it's like 2 in the noon.
Hot and humid.

What a brilliant time-tabling committee.

no idea why
but i just feel so drained now.
not physically
but mentally.

sometimes,
i feel as if im living such a pointless life.

right now,
i just want a nice jug of beer,
a soothing and peaceful surroundings,
and time for me to relax and think...

ciaos.

2009-07-10T17:19:00.006+08:00

Introducing the Duel of the week~

VS

who will have the last laugh?

right.
im back from the mids.
glad to say im still alive.
but ain't glad waiting for the results.

not when you got teachers who go around disturbing you,
scaring the hell out of you by injecting all sorts of negative news.

been putting my brain on vacation mode for the past 2 days.
im in full support of giving it a good rest!

so now im left with 2 things to do to destress myself.

1) The two books i got ages ago from the library.

2) PSP, with newly installed games.

tough choice!
right?!
damn.

just something random.
im left with 2 months plus to prelims.
3 month or so to the Big As.
Fast huh?

but seriously.
i realised i becoming more and more, what us teens call no-life.
look at my usual school day routine.

wake up, go college, study, eat, more study, rest, sleep.

and there it goes over and over and over and over again.
i totally agree with you that it's sick!
but seriously i got not much choice left.
my mates are all mugging away.

YES RON, I AM TALKING ABOUT YOU!

but somehow,
i feel like im in a slightly better mood and situation as compared to previously.
let this carry on yeah.

and oh yeah.

i saw Person A once while walking to school today.
Person B twice at the atrium while going for QSE(:

before i graduate from the school,
there's something i MUST/DEFINITELY/HAVE TO/NO REASONS NOT TO do .
otherwise,
i know i'll regret it if i miss it.
c'mon,
i don't want regrets!

last but not least,
try taking this in.

We Live to love.
Learn to Love to live.
&
Don't stop playing because we got old.
We got old because we stop playing.

Cheers and ciaos!
(:

2009-07-06T21:59:00.003+08:00

i camped in starbucks today for revision!
had a really HUGE cup of vanilla latte to curb my coffee addiction.(:
it tasted really good i swear.

did some stats practice,
but wasn't really effective without my notes around,
ain't v sure with all the keystrokes yet =.=
and my brain is just so saturated today.
no idea why.

3 more days to the end of MYE!
and the start of revision for Prelims.

yeah i know.
sad life.

that's a typical JC kid.
wait till I get this over and done with...

P.S : i'm totally digging that first song in my playlist now. Whatever it is by Zac Brown Band.

Simple yet nice lyrics.

2009-07-05T12:29:00.007+08:00

just a quick one.

How many of you actually get a temp of 35.5 degrees+ usually?

none?

then i guess im not norm =.=

so far, i've been getting a reading of 35+ as my temp.

what's with that?

and yesterday when i was practically sweating like nuts after i reach the college school gate,

the guard took my temp and it only reads 36.6 degrees.

i swear i was sweating like nuts!

cold-blooded huh?

haha.

So anyway,

yesterday's plan was head down to the college for a short gymming session with my friend.

but then,

to our dismay ( or maybe excitement, HAHA, jkjk)

the vball girls were already there.

since it wasn't really nice for 2 guys to just walk in to a gym full of girls,

we decided to go off and grab our soya milk first.

when we got back, gym was locked-.-

how great.

wanted to play squash, but both courts were occupied.
double greatness.

in the end, we went off to AMK hub for a short 45 min pooling.

it's really great to play it again after not touching it for so long!

awesome(:

left to meet my badminton mates after pooling.

thought i was gonna be late.

yet i was earlier than them-.-

went on to SP to have our badminton session.

now,

after not playing sports or doing aerobic exercises for quite a period,

the few games of badminton nearly killed me =.=

no joke.

i guess it's because of the bad stomachache i have all along,

plus the huge amounts of "heaty" food i consumed lately,

but after like a few games,

i was seriously feeling just so lethargic.

and my shots ahs..

horrible man.

time to brush it up again.

but then again,

so many sports im interested in currently!

dinner followed up later on.

bath @ sp,

headed down to Jurong Point for some food.

you know what?

being out with a bunch of guys might not be so good sometimes.

for the fact that we're actually kinda casual ppl,

it took us like half an hour to decide where to eat.

and a further 15 min flipping through a 4-page menu.

HAHA.

but anyway,

we settled down in a Jap restaurant named Yaki Yakibo.

personally,

the food's not bad.

and the price's pretty reasonable too!

one more thing,

their chawanmushi (steam egg) is simply awesome!

rating of 5, i give it 5!

it's not like the norm restaurant whereby they prepared it in advance and serve you straight from the kitchen where they're keeping it warm.

this restaurant they prepared the chawanmushi right in front of you.

and gosh,

after you try the first one,

I bet you'll want to go for a second!

People,

do visit this restaurant if you have a chance!

ohh yeah, Andersen's Ice Cream rocks too!(:

Ciaos!

P.S : Anyway, something i picked up yesterday after a day of not so eventful things that happened to me.

It's not point mourning and groaning over bad stuffs that had happened, for that will just demoralise yourself and bring about more bad stuffs. Maintain a positive attitude and you'll see yourself smiling real soon(:

2009-07-02T20:47:00.002+08:00

yes yes yes!
finally it's the last paper tmr!

the last paper...

for the week, lol.
finally a week of MYE's gonna be down.
no idea how well or how badly i've done.
not v confident of my answers ahs.
but nvm,
what's done is done.

after next week,
prelims up next.
follow by the big game.

4 more months..
4 more months and i'll be a free soul(:
4 more months later i shall party and rock my world away ((:

all the best everyone.
Ciaos!

P.S : What an unexpected place to see her today! hahaha.(:

2009-06-30T22:05:00.004+08:00

hey all.
im pretty sure the v recent news of the death of The King Of Pop have caught you guys, right?

R.I.P MJ

millions of fans you have in the world.
your songs shall live on with them(:

just 3 short videos of him i found online.

again,
R.I.P MJ.

2009-06-29T20:23:00.001+08:00

crap~
it just dont feel right returning to school after a month long break.
everything just feels weird!

and i hate the waking up early part=.=
4 more months!!
4 more months and im free of all this(:

time time faster fly!

ohh,
things are in such a mess now.
total H1N1 cases amounting to 599 at the moment.
the community spread is crazy seriously.
in about a week plus 600 cases detected.
gosh.

people!
keep up on your personal hygiene yeah!

2009-06-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

darn.
one last day left to MYE.
all set?!
i feel weird ehs.
let's hope i can survive this.

went for a friend's bday bbq ytd,
smth different from what i usually do nowadays, aka mugging=.=

now my stomach/liver/what-it-is is staging a really huge protest in my body.
and i really mean a v bad one.
probably cos of the alcohol i had yesterday.
i was figuring out what could might be the reason
till i rmb this report on newspaper that reads

"Never consume your liqour too fast, such as in a gulp."

precisely what i did yesterday night.
now i know what's the effect=.=
so peeps,
take note yeah,
otherwise you'll be like me now,
totally have no idea what to do to stop the stupid stomachache.
argh!

so,
nothing much happening,
and oh yeah.
i cant wait for sch to open,
im bloody excited=.=
yeah right...

Ciaos!

P.S : i dreamt of ______!(:

2009-06-22T01:49:00.003+08:00

crazy timing to update,
but i just got so sick of all the benzenes, alcohols, carbonyl stuffs!

now, off to running in circles, defying gravity and playing with electricity!

ciaos!

2009-06-21T14:28:00.005+08:00

i totally need a good ó cup of coffee, soothing ambience and quiet surroundings right now!
thinking of hitting the macs tonights,
or maybe starbucks tmr morning!

mug mug mug~
my lovely physics, here i come D:

2009-06-20T17:33:00.002+08:00

hey all,
im back(:

for the first time,
i set foot on the Singapore Flyer yesterday night(:
The World's Largest Ferris Wheel, cool.

wanted to take some really good shots from the flyer
but after several attempts with the fabulous phone of mine, i gave up.
so anyway,

at the moment at the top,
i made a secret promise to myself(:
wasn't smth big,
but definitely big for me.
one day, i'll be there with her(:

oh yeah,
while i was cruising around in the city,
this thought just came into my mind.

Night, is a time full of magical suprises.

i totally got no idea why this thought came up,
but.. yeah..

Destinated for home after that,
getting shagged from the gymming and activities for the day.

ohh, before i forget,
a week left to the start of school.
which means the start of mye!
but school also means....
heh.

but but but,
the recent spread of news about the suspension of school for the first week??
no idea how true is it.

Ciaos!

Taking a peek of the city from the top.

2009-06-17T20:23:00.007+08:00

went gyming agn today!
however it was extra fun because i saw...
heh(:

i believe...
someday i'll be tgt with her(:
All i need is...
you(:

im addicted to gym!
what to do? o.o

anw,
the thought of having only less than 1 and a half weeks left to sch reopen really freaks me out.
that signals the coming of mye,
as well as A lvls.

i really wanna ace it.

countless times i've told myself.
this will be the target i have for myself for now.
and im sure that goes the same for 1234556789n times other JC kids like me.
let's all conquer it tgt, yeah? (:

right,
signing off soon.
im outta words!

so yeah.
ciaos!

i missed my chances today.
im not gonna miss it for the 2nd time.

2009-06-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

hey folks!
i deleted away the previous post,
cos i thought it was crappy =.=

anw, pretty satisfied with myself today.
mugged through several impt maths chapt(:
quite productive i would say.

opened this page like half an hour ago
with some stuffs to post
but now i've clean forgotten about what i wanted to post.
so yeah.
save it for next time then.

heading to sch tmr to study.
den gym(:
praying hard praying hard to see her!

anyway, before i leave
a vid for you guys to enjoy.
trust me,
after u watch this,
subsequent times u listen to touch my body by Mariah Carey,
this guy will appear in ur mind. LOL

2009-06-12T18:59:00.005+08:00

NOOOOOOOOOOO!
my idol lost at Singapore Open AVIVA! D:

Lee Chong Wei's out of the tournament.
i guess it's a really huge upset for most of the fans ehs.

right.
so im here agn(:
just a short and fast update ehs.
believe me,
I HAVE BEEN STUDYING!

so yesterday i took a day off,
went out with my OG, 0921.
been quite some time since the last outing with them.

this time round we head on to Minds Cafe.
wasn't too bad,
it was quite fun actually(:
those who have not idea how Minds Cafe is like,
it's a boardgames cafe.

you pay, go in, sit down, play boardgames(:
but it's not the usual kinds you have at home.
another similar palce u guys could try out would be The Settlers' Cafe.
it's the same thing actually(:

for the fact that i met up with my mates in the morning for a round of badminton
i was damn shagged at the later part of the day.
so when i reached Minds, i was practically stoning there when everyone else was playing like crazy, LOL.

hung out there till about 6+ then we headed for dinner.
was great, had vegetarian(:
when i first saw the menu,
i was like asking nicholas

"You SURE this is a vegetarian stall?? YOU SURE?!"

HAHAHA.
can't be helped.
their photos of the meat they have just look so real,lol.
btw,
we had quite some trouble when dividing the cost,
because of a genius named nicholas.
HAHAHA.
but eventually,
we ironed things out(:

well, what's better than walk around and a place for chatting right after a satisfying dinner?(:
headed to what '21 call Lao Di Fang =D
let this be kept within the OGLs and '21 yeah(:
then it was spooking session and some crazy shots we did there.

now now,
what's better than a nice day out with your lovely juniors? (:

[ ohh yeah, Grace, if you are reading this, stop smiling, hahaha(: ]

Cheers!(:

P/S : Facebook is SO INTERRUPTING me from uploading the pics! which is why i am putting up 3 pics here, lol.

2009-06-11T00:19:00.002+08:00

the much anticipated pair i had in mind lost today D:

Lee wan wah! D:

great upset!

but lucky KKK's still in!(:

and oh yeah.

GO Lee Chong wei!

2009-06-08T20:37:00.002+08:00

hey yo,
im back agn, lol.
im seriously getting sooo sooo sooo sooo darn bored.
the stupid notes
stupid prelim papers
stupid mugging regime that i've no choice to but go through it.
*sigh*

someone save me please???
no rewards though, heh.
i hope it's her..

right.
since the start of hols,
today is the day i woke up the earliest.
guess what time is it?
7.45 am.
*laughs*

[hey! it's kind of early for hols ok! (: ]

the supposedly reach by 9am in sch turned out to be 10 instead.
but still, i would say today's still quite productive(:
went through acjc prelim papers '08.
and after that, the stress level in me seemed to have spike up.
alot of stuffs taught last year i actually forgot 90%.
well done~

gym was what's next.
spent 2 gruesome hours in it.
suprisingly, my arms aren't really aching today,
when i did like 9 sets of everything.
hope tmr will be ok as well!
*fingers crossed*

so u see,
my day's pretty boring right???
ahhs.
i hate this kind of life man.
alright, maybe not hate.
it's just too....peaceful and routine in a sense.
i need smth fun, smth exciting, smth interesting, smth... NEW!(:

anyway,
i guess i have to repeat this kind of routine for like 6 more months i guess.
*sigh*
with her around, this will not feel anything like a routine. im hoping for the change i desire.. with her around..

not much thoughts today, so yeah
i guess i will sign off here.

ciaos!

2009-06-07T22:56:00.003+08:00

i salute to the advertisement companies for their creativity!

for those who have not watched this,
try it.
I had a good time lmao when i first saw it.

*two thumbs up*

2009-06-05T20:36:00.003+08:00

hooooly crap~
another day wasted not studying D:
but then agn, im now rejuvenated(:
let this be a starting step for me!

had a really good sleep till 9+ in the morning.
then the noon was spent with my sec sch mates playing badminton.
it was awesome i tell you(:

i've never laughed so much in a day for such a long time alr!
if i say my usual friends are funny,
then this group of of friends today will be the jokers amongst the jokers, haha.

they lead such a different life from me.
it's really distinct, anyone could tell straight away.
and it has really been great to experience a change like this once in a while(:
if life was a movie,
theirs will be an action packed one.

without realising,
they have gradually changed so much over the years.
changes are bound to happen
it's how you gonna view it and accept it.i

anw, i guess in the coming future,
i'll now make it an effort to stay connected with them much more than before.
to me,
friends they are(:

right anw,
i guess few of my friends reading this will be chiding at me now D:

" c'mon YL, what happened to the mugging you mentioned? MYE's coming dude!"

yeah i know i know,
i promise i'll be a good boy from next week onwards alright!
no more procrastinating!
heh.

at times, i really wonder are we actually wasting our life away?
spending the days mugging our asses off to obtain a piece of paper,
then work ourselves away to provide for our family,
then spend your remaining days worrying about your kids' future.

life shouldn't be such a way i feel.
it should be smth more than that.
we only live life ONCE,
who knows where we go when we die?

but how many of us are really able to let go of our burden and really pursue what we love?
not many, not many.
i salute to those who can, for i admire them.

i want to control life
and not let life control me instead.

to me, i feel that the meaning of life is degrading.
look at our lifestyles
our education system today,
you'll have an idea of what i mean.
yet, what to do?
after all, we're living in a practical world.

thats about it for today i guess.
ciaos!

i miss her, i seriously do.
it's a weird feeling i've nvr had before.
what to do?
*sigh*

2009-06-04T17:20:00.003+08:00

hello folks!
days been great? (:

had been working out quite often recently ehs.
kinda fun.
and the work out ytd in the gym was just much more enjoyable than the normal days.
my friend siva will get what i mean(:
the bouncing was just way cute, hahaha.
ohh god,
ever since that event
everyone except her are like nth to me already.
what has she done to me? (:

anw, mugged a little these few days,
but here im just back from a tennis game with my mates.
it was awesome(:
gonna pick up tennis soon!

so anyway,
i still feel my life's pretty mundane.
nothing special
no highlights
just a plain story D:

anyone can spice it up for me???
in a good way please(:
if only she comes into my life..
then the whole world will feel as if it's mine(:

gonna spend the rest of the remaining days mugging my ass off.
i need my 3 Cs man!
i need her too!
im going nuts!

signing off soon.
before i leave, let me share smth with you guys.

Without the negatives,
we'll never be able to appreciate the positives.

Adversity.
Do you let it change you?
or You change it?

Ciaos!

2009-06-01T18:24:00.002+08:00

Today has been a great day! (:

hit the gym with siva today.
had a really great workout today.
we worked our ass off totally.
( im actually using all my strength just to wipe my hair aft shower)

take care ppl! (:

yeah!
i saw her in school today!
must be my lucky day, heh.
made my day totally :D
i wan more! ((:

2009-05-31T14:31:00.002+08:00

hey all!
how's everyone?
been a couple of days since my last entry(:
and oh yeah,
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!

that's the best man!
not because i get to slack,
but for the fact that i don't have to get up at freaking early timing to go to school!
and i can study at ease! (i truly mean it i swear!)

haven't had much happenings lately.
a quick sum up.

Wed&Thurs

usual boring sch day.
can't expect much can I?
haha.
was looking out for her.
but i guess luck isn't on my side yeah.
30 more days to seeing her...
can't help but to think of her...

Friday

had GP paper.
no idea how it'll be like when the results are out.
but passage 2 was seriously smth i can't really understand!
Essay was pretty ok i find.(:

Saturday

had dinner with my dad's colleagues at Maru Korean BBQ.
it was great!
and damn,
that area, Muhammed Sultan Road (Smth like that) where the restaurant i went was situated,
is packed with all the finest restaurant with the greatest ambience that i've been looking for!
im so gonna dine at that place when my horrendous papers have ended!

Today

pretty bored.
that explains why im here!
haha.
it's my day to relax and chill(:

shall be returning to school tomorrow,
to mark the start of my mugging days till the end of A levels.
the typical life of a Junior College student.

anw, something to engage all of you.
My father's colleagues and i were chatting on the other day back, (his family are korean, including him).
he was mentioning that his kids were in kindergarden, and he was astonished by what he saw in the nursery.
In fact, this is already such a common sight to all of us,
but it shows how much the society is changing now.

what he described was,

he saw his kids, sitting with some 20 other kids on tables and chairs, and a teacher teaching using the blackboard.

i bet most of you are with wide-opened eyes and reading at my entry with disbelief now.
but i swear, that was what he said.

let's think back.
when we were about 5-6 years old, what were we doing in nursery?
or in fact, what were we doing?
how about generations above us, like our parents?

i daresay, most spent their time outdoors, playing to their fill,
enjoying every minute and second of their childhood.
but look at the kids today,
i really sympathise them.

not much to be said anymore,
i guess all of you have your own ideas.

think about it yeah.
15 years down the road,
When you have your own child, what will be your decisions?

2009-05-26T22:05:00.003+08:00

Chem spa Physics spa,
you're officially off my list! (:

glad that the horrendous spa skill A is over on mon!
i swear i had been dreaming of iodine vapour, sodium thiosulphate previously,
followed by bows, arrows and efficiency!

with left than half a year to go,
there's no time for any other distractions ehs.

However, being a human,
coupled that we're living in such an insane world today,
it'll be quite a feat for us to remain sane.
can I accomplish that?
only time will tell.

the scene at the staircase today,
it keeps replaying over and over again in my mind.
what a bad time to bump into her..
but certainly im praying for a positive ans.
best of luck to you guys too!

2009-05-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

NYBMT's bbq night yesterday spells F-U-N!

we provided 250 bucks worth of food and service, hahaha.
and the forfeits,
batam-style~

bmt members will know what it means(:

shan't elaborate much.
it should be kept in where it belongs(:

Cheers.

2009-05-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

and finally the long awaited weekends is here!
been stuck at home since 5 pm today.
stuck on books.

been blog hopping for like the past 5 minutes.
saw this blog of a friend's friend that's titled the irony of life.
this title struck me, had me thinking for quite a moment.

Had we always presume life to be good, thats why when things get harder, we say that it's ironic?

personally,
at least till now, im leading quite a good life and dont really expect it to be any much better
(perhaps just an aspect of it which i really dread to have)

given our age and years living thus far,
what have we got written in our book to say life's difficult?
in the journey of life,
i would say we're still greenhorns/freshmen.

many more years await,
and we've gotta just keep on facing it head on and carrying on with it.
full of ups and downs, that's a component of life.
it just aint right that we starting screaming

"ahhs dammit! life's running me down!"

every moment we're met with some sort of an obstacle.

i mean, yeah, it's natural reaction, of course
nobody will argue against that,
but much complain don't really provide remedies to the problem, isn't it?
we've just got to learn along the way.

but thus far, experiences i had taught several really important lessons.

*No one's perfect.

simple as it may sound, but how true it is.
for the fact that we're imperfect, we do make mistakes as we journey on.
at times, effects are devastating.
at times, it doesn't really hurt.

but no matter what,
we can't blame a man forever for his mistakes, for he is imperfect.
and perhaps, that's what make us human.

without imperfection, how are we able to see the perfection within one?

seeing this,
forgive and forget was then re-enforced within me.

**There will seldom be a situation in life you can satisfy both sides at the same time.

a quick and easy example.
You're caught in an argument between 2 good friends.
how many times had you been able to really break them apart and appeased both sides at the same time?
*laugh*

that goes the same for our normal daily lives as well.
often we're torn apart in between our desires, our visions and our goals.
and often we've tried to tell ourselves we'll be able to attain and sustain both.
but time to time, we're told straight in the face by life that

"look dude, it's just not as easy as you think".

but then again,
many times we're just unable to let go of either sides.
it takes a whole lot of courage and effort to let go of one.
what other choices do we have, other than to prioritise?

however, bad as it may sound, once we set our priorities out
then we know what we really want in life,
and many times we're often grateful than not for doing that, don't we? (:
just think of this,

if you had chosen your studies over your gf/bf a year ago, will you be how sweet you are today?

if you had let go of your personal commitments over school work 2 years ago, would you have great friends you had today?

subconciously,
we've been doing so many things which we had never realised how great/important they were.

You may think life's a task,
but the little suprises it had in store for us make it all worthwhile.

2009-05-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

sup folks.
finally, a part of Chemistry for A level is down.
Skill A, that is.

took the examination during a hot tuesday noon.
frankly, it was plain regurgitation, but that took a hell lot of brain cells.
at least it's over.
next up,
Physics Skill A.

preparation for that starts tomorrow.
somehow, i just dont feel right these few days.
have no idea,
it's just that i dont feel like myself.
there seems to be another mind in my mind
*sigh*

no idea what's becoming of me.
at least, the workload for these few days seem somehow lighter
for the fact that

*maths - was "forced" to complete the tutorial way before hand.

*chem - completed most of it, left only a part of nitrogen compounds.

what's worrying is physics.
it just seems that there's a system in my mind/body that refrains me from touching that assignment=.=

had a chat with a friend today in the library in sch.
it's not hard to realise how little time we are left with till A levels.
a rough approximation of about 168 days left.

the pressure's setting in.
and i still have no way of handling it now.
i need to force myself into this really focused, unmovable, can't-be-shaken mugger state real soon,
otherwise i'll be a classic example of a goner.

I haven't forget my target of 4As for A level (inclusive of PW).
I need to attain that target.

there've been many moments i nearly crumbled,
with all the wild and tedious distractions coming in at me.
but then again, this phrase i remembered,
it serves as my pillar till so far.

"The walls are there, to differentiate those who REALLY want it, and those who want it." - Randy Pausch

takecare folks.

P.S : Im stuck on this korean drama call Boys over flowers.
P.P.S : The settings for the drama, it's breath-taking.
P.P.P.S : Before you start sniggering and laughing at me, try watching it.

2009-05-17T13:29:00.003+08:00

hey folks.
it's me again.
my posts are getting more and more regular ehs.
*laughs*

anyway,
when i was having trouble sleeping yesterday night,
i recalled how things were when i first stepped into college.
still a freshman then,
the start of a college life was a whole new experience for me.
memories of things that happened were still fresh in my mind,
as if it just happened days or maybe weeks before.

now im coming to the end of my college life,
in about another 6 months time.
fast?
a year had just passed like that.

Time and tide waits for no man.

One of the many cliché quotations that have been used through the decades.

simple, yet so true.

and i guess,

it's because of the fact that it's so true,

everything is in such a fast pace nowadays.

look around you people.

especially every morning.

how many do you see brushing past you in a haste?

how many have you seen busy talking on the phone even in the midst of meals and breaks?

important as it may be,

but people, we should slow down our clock.

in this pace,

you guys would have been missing out all the fun, laughter and all the little things in life!

try this.

from this day onwards,

if you see yourself rushing again,

working yourself through the day and let each day pass by just as it is,

slow down,

take a deep breath,

and take a look around you.

look at that man who's waiting for the train just like you are, yet constantly looking at his watch and drips of sweat down his face.

look at that man smoking near the bus stop, huffing and puffing every now and then, walking to and fro as he waits for the bus.

then, look at the kid who has his book out, reading as he sits in the train, with a wide smile on his face, fascinated by the book that engaged him.

look at the group/pairs who are chatting with each other merrily, with sounds of laughter heard every now and then.

little things happen in our life.

little it may seem,

but the joy and peace it brings is unmeasurable.

appreciate them,

you'll find yourself in a whole new world.

Cheers(:

2009-05-15T23:05:00.002+08:00

yo folks!
2nd post of the day!
just got back from the mall.
caught the movie Angels&Demons

a little intro first.

the film tells the story of a dominant religion in Vatican (in the movie), Catholics.
The people had always have strong faith in the preachings.
However, a group begs to differ. The Illuminati. They chose science and technology over religion.
They believe science and tech was the origin of human life, rather than God (as believed by the Catholics)
The 2 went on to enforce and prove their stands in the ancient Vatican, yet the battle only to find its way into the modern world today, when a new Pope is about to be selected after the death of the predecessor.
Illuminati threatens to destroy Vatican and demolish the church, with a material named anti-matter, product of Science and tech, yet only to Professor Langdon (Tom Hanks) in its way.
Who will win the final battle?

the movie was great! (duration around 140min)
frankly speaking, for me i thought the movie is a good catch.
it's definitely worth the money you paid for it!

1st impression of it was the usual mystery film with bits of cool action and graphics.
but it proves me wrong.
I've nothing to complain about the plot!
Many moments i were held in suspense, trying to figure out the mystery.

not only that, the movie teachs us an important quality that we should uphold in this modern world.
Mutual respect, ( in the context, it was about religion and science and tech)
we're going to move into an era where religion and science and technology shall thrive alongside.

Religions have flaws, because us humans have flaws.

what appeals to me is the twist the director added on to close the story.
such a simple, used-to-be-commonly-used technique
yet so effective.
it took the movie to a whole new level i would say(:

what you waiting for?
Go catch it now!(:

aft the movie was a chatting session over the food with the friend on mine who i caught the movie with(:

been long since we last shared our views and thoughts.
a great time it was.
all i could say it,

Live life happy(:

Cheers!

2009-05-15T16:15:00.002+08:00

hey folks!
signed myself up for this nuffnang ads thing today!
if i one day my pockets are tight and i decided to put up click ads,
do help me to click like crazy yeah!
thanks a bunch!
i'll be grateful beyond words =D

so anw,
to ALL NANYANG JC STUDENTS OUT THERE.

DO NOT, I REPEAT, DO NOT
BOOK COLLEGE LIBRARY'S DISCUSSION ROOM 2 UNLESS YOU HAVE YOUR JACKET WITH YOU.
THE AIR CON IS FREEZING COLD IN THERE!
so unless you love being chilled alive, refrain from entering without extra clothes!
haha.

Cheers(:

2009-05-13T21:50:00.003+08:00

dang!
something pissed me off totally when i was returning home from school that made me have this urge to blog now,
instead of doing tutorial.
(it's not an excuse!)

well, today had been rather fine.
stayed in school for a floorball competition.
managed to fight till the quarter, before we were knocked out by another team.

then i thought it's about time to return home for some long desired rest.
so as i reached amk, i went up to the platform (with ron)
i was totally stunned by the crowd infront of me!

Apparently, smrt says that for some reason there's a disruption of train service from amk to yishun.
stoned there for like 10 min before we decided to get out to get a cab.
guess what.
everyone was flagging for cab like crazy.
queues at taxi stands were so long that you might think that there's a concert there=.=
end up, taking train to orchard for cab.

and at orchard, ron did smth ass funny.
all the passerby were like staring at him.
i was like laughing so hard!
and we were wearing school related shirt=.=
ohh great.

Look at the pic below.
that was how packed it is!

2009-05-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

hey there peeps.
i've created a new livejournal account.
Reason being?
im kind of sick of blogger.

yet at the same time,
blogger seems quite fun as compared.
let's see how things goes.

My livejournal.

Cheers(:

2009-05-10T23:13:00.002+08:00

alright.
second post of the day.
with a gap less than 1hour.
HAHAHA.

i should be studying
but hell no,
i end up looking at my second blog's archives.

it's real fun reading through it.
sometimes,
when we think back of our past actions
we burst out laughing, or smiling.
like what i did just now.

to see what had bothered me back then
what had made me laughed
what had made me fall into sorrow
what had made me furious
what had made me troubled

compared to now,
though there're still some similarities
i've seen how much i've came through.

some things had changed for the better
but some for the worst.

Looking back,
i could feel that joy/happiness within my post,within the words
the simple yet true feeling of joy.

looking at my posts now,
i dont think i can find it anymore.
sad?

i rather think that
as we get older
we come to face more problems
more things start to bother us
more things start to get more important to us

that we start to lose that simple joy/ that little kid we have in each and everyone of us.

it's all part of growing up.
isn's it?

after all, things come with prices.
and some
it comes with hefty prices..

2009-05-10T22:15:00.002+08:00

sup people.
how's ya break so far?
Mine's been doing fine! (:
and i have another day to go
tomorrow!
Cheers~

anw, came back to blog because i was too bored.
don't really have much in mind
and i dont really know what to write either
given the fact that i dont have a single idea who comes here and who does not =/
but at least now i know there's a mate of mine who does visit often(:

so, a good news for everyone first (though it's a bit outdated)

Mas Selamat is caught!

and

Singapore's Pandemic Alert Level drops from Orange to Yellow tmr!
(Sorry folks, i left Yellow as pale orange because the it'll simply be too bright if i left it in yellow.)

these 2 pieces of news spells joy doesn't it?(:
Let's hope for a greater good news ( i.e. we're out of the crunch) in time to come!

anw,
i've just deleted away what i had been typing for the past 20 minutes or so =.=
it just felt so plain and boring..
damn, i need a bloody good and wide range of vocab to really spice all this up!

btw, what i was typing just now.
it's about Sleeping.
this article i read off newsweek,
states that

a group of people who sat for a memory test
proved that after they memorise/study and took a break to sleep, while some didn't, those who slept remembered better than those who didn't.
Cool huh?

The Human body's amazing.
speaking of that.
go watch this documentary named Man Vs Wild.

it's damn nice, i assure you.
all about survival in the wild.
The man's called Bear Grylls.
(If im not wrong)

Critics have been slamming the doc. for being a phoney
as well as Bear.
But still, i think the doc. is great, and it's something really worth watching.
No matter what, that job he has, it's still quite a feat for him to do all that.

If you are so against him, calling him a fake, then try doing what he did(:
Prove me, and i'll shut up.

Sometimes, words just seem to come out of our mouth without going through our brains.
Yes, that happened to me, i admit that.
No one's perfect.
The thing is to learn from it after that.
Cases and cases i had seen, people start criticising and slamming each other for this and that,
but seldom they realise they had committed the same foolish behaviour in the process.

It's not what you're underneath,
but what you do that defines you.

i totally agree with it.
(:

dammit.
i think one of those infatuations of mine is acting up again=.=
girls.
a source of joy, yet trouble at the same time.

2009-05-07T17:38:00.002+08:00

and so.
A div ended on a good note,
with a victorious match over PJC.

and that,
marks the end of my JC life badminton path.
a year ago when i was anticipating for this day to come
i thought i would feel extremely happy when it finally arrive.
but then again
at this moment when this day arrives
a wave of mixed feelings swept over me.

I don't deny i feel happy that finally it's over
but at the same time, i couldn't help experiencing sorrow within my heart.
a feeling of can't bear to let go.

as any warrior would have called it

those two above, are my faithful weapons/servants who accompanied me all along.

*laugh*

together, we lost, we conquered, we overcomed.

it's time i put them to rest.

who knows when they will be called out to serve their purpose again?

the following are dedications to NYBMT(:

First of all,

allow me to start with the Man who brought us through this 2 years.

To Coach Robert Han :

Coach, deep from my heart, i say a big THANK YOU to you. You've brought me to a new level which i've nvr attained before. From a player who only knew how to smash and uses brute force, you taught me the techniques to create, create and create. Definitely i've benefit a great deal from your coaching and advice these 2 years. If not for you, i wouldn't be playing my game today.

Thank you(:

Next up,

the Teachers in charge,

To Mr Loo and Ms Lee :

Teachers, i thank both of you for your continuous guidance. The first year wasn't a easy year yet you stood by us and brought the whole team together again. I know we must have created a whole load of headache and troubles for both of you, but both of you never lose faith in us and continue supporting us. Thank you(:

NOW...

TO ALL THE J2s OF NYBMT (Yilong included):

HEY GUYS! Thanks for the 2 great years together! Though the first year we kick off quite badly, but im glad it's all over and we've moved on from there. I seriously had a great time training with all of you. Imagine how bored training would have been if it weren't for all of you. and of course, our batam trip! What happened in the hotel room yeah!(:

Im sure all of us had a splendid time this year. Though both teams did not make it into where we had hope to, but we have definitely accomplished something in life and we haven't had last year.

The runs we did..

the drills we survived..

the matches we played..

the moments we shared..

these are things i wouldn't trade for anything, believe it or not. Now it marks the end of the chapter of our badminton life here in NYJC, but hey guys,

this is not the just the end, but the beginning of another!

With the A div behind us, let's all work hard together now for the A levels yeah!

We shall gather together again the next year, on the stage when we receive our cert(:

Thanks everyone!

Lastly, not forgetting

The J1s:

Hey people. Though the time i shared with all of you have been really quite limited, but the addition of you guys into the team seriously made a difference. We had much fun together(: Now that the time for me, this old J2, has passed, it's time you guys take over and make a difference.

Im sure you guys can achieve what we have not accomplished this year. Let's all work hard, train hard and play hard together alright?

Cheers!

*phew*

thats about it i guess.

it's really difficult to just part and leave like that.

I used to complain how late i reach home etc etc

but now it just feels weird to not have trainings anymore on mon thurs and fri.

This is life, we have no choice but to bear with it yeah..

i hate partings, but i have no control over it...

oh yeah,

my friends out there,

if you happen to be reading

just wish to say that these few days i may appear to be more emotional

more hot tempered etc etc

all this partings etc have just disrupted my mood and my system

so...

yeah.

my mood ain't v stable.

so yeah.

Sorry if I do offend you guys somehow these few days yeah.

Thanks for understanding.

Lastly,

though i've made dedications here

i have no idea what are the chances that they will be read off.

I'm not someone who are very good with words

or expressing my feelings openly,

especially to groups of people like teachers, coaches and even those who i like.

so..

i seriously pray that

somehow, those words i wrote above

will magically travel to the ears of those who they should belong to.

*laughs*

thats all.

Ciaos!

Takecare(:

P.S : A piece of good news, if things go on smoothly, by monday, Singapore's Pandemic Alert Level will be back at Yellow.

Let's all pray hard for all this to cease yeah!

2009-05-05T21:53:00.002+08:00

ironically
i wasn't too elated about me passing my physics test today.
all along it had remained at a grade S or so
yet today i managed to scrape a D.

like i said,
suprisingly i spent the rest of the day in solemn and silence.
how great.

just when i thought things are going well
it starts crashing down again.
never harbour too much hope ehs?
screw everything.

Decisions.
They were never easy.

If given a choice,
i wouldn't want to be given a choice at times.

2009-05-04T21:38:00.002+08:00

At times, we hold back the words we want to say,
for the fear of losing the person we hold dear once we said it.

Yet in the our heart a struggle surfaced.
For if we keep the words to ourselves,
no way there is for the one we treasure to know.

Fear vs Love

Tell or not to tell?

2009-05-01T12:46:00.003+08:00

hey there peeps.
bet all of you are taking a break in the midst of this may day right?
do rest well yeah.
a short break from the hectic life that all of us are leading.

was reading the newspaper a while ago.
and seriously, every piece of news is just telling me how this world has transformed into a worse-than-before state.
let's just do a count.
out of 10 news, i see at least 7 that are negative news.

First thing first.
Singapore has cranked up her pandemic alert level from yellow to orange.
that doesn't look good does it?
but in a positive light,
we are preparing ourselves for what might be possible to happen.

but let's think back.
approximately about a year ago, what do we have?
Avian Flu.

Now,
Swine Flu.

what could be next?
definitely, i hope that after this nth much will appear again.
But people might just start slamming me for being naive, right?

On a side note,
i applaud the Singapore Government, Ministry of Health for their quick to react measures and safety precautions they have put in place.
Let's all keep this practices up yeah.

Next point,
wars, political unrest, killings everywhere.

Pakistan, Afghanistan etc etc.
and from today's news, a university shooting in Baku, Azerbaijan.

It'll be overestimation of myself to judge all this and to claim i am right,
but what's with all this?
The world is chaotic enough with the economic crisis and now the outbreak of the swine flu,
which might prove to be a pandemic.

FYI, a flu virus that broke out in 1918-1919, it killed 40million people worldwide.

Though experts have assured that the current flu has nowhere near that capacity,
but imagine the horror a flu can bring about?

then to add on,
we have all the political issues going on.

As an individual, i can't do anything but to just feel sadden by the events of such happening around the world.

Mankind has seriously changed so much, haven't we?
Looking back, i daresay back then the generations are now faced with as much problems as we have today.
Progress come with a price huh?

i still feel that all this happening, we have no one to blame but the changing mindsets of us humans.

Will we, one day, have the courage to turn back the pendulum, and go back to what things were a hundred years ago, even if it means the giving up of our progress?

However,
despite all these that are happening around the world,
i believe all of us should still live on with a positive mindset and attitude everyday.
If one continues to carry the pessimism and negativity in you,
imagine how painful it can be just to live through everyday?

Think positive people.
and lastly,

borrowed from Professor Moody in JK Rowling's Harry Potter series,
let us all live in "Constant Vigilance".
take care people.

Ciaos.

2009-04-27T18:08:00.004+08:00

sup people.
came to blog today because of what a mate told me today.
i certainly hope im mistaken about this.
but apparently it's not.

i have no intention of creating another rage or problem at this time of the year
but seriously,
that person ought to do some serious self reflection.

Dude,
look.
Before you start calling others F*kers, why don't you go have a look at yourself in the mirror?
you think you're so great huh?
come on, dont make my toes laugh.

Time to time, things have proven to me again and again
sometimes, your words aren't worth believing in.
your actions have clearly shown what kind of person you are.
so please, dont discredit yourself even more.

i've no intention of creating any problem or whatsoever.
but mind your words.
If you start this again,
i will not just let it rest like that.

18 year old you are.
START ACTING LIKE A MAN, AND NOT A BOY.
PLEASE BE FREAKING MORE MATURE.

*phew*
done with all the nagging/complaints and sh*t.

for those who thought im directing at you, please don't take it personally.
You know im not directing at you.
This is meant to be known only to me myself and a few mates of mine.
so yeah, let's keep it that way(:

Just keep the comments to you guys yourself yeah.
i want no more comments about this.
I've wasted one post on this
have ruined my blog cos of this,
i dont wanna do it the second time.

Have a good day everyone.
Cheers(:

2009-04-25T23:08:00.003+08:00

sup ppl.
deleted off yesterday's post cos it sounded crap=.=.

so i realised that my blog looks kind of mundane.
for the fact that there doesn't seem to have any nice pictures around.

well, it's not that i do not wish to take any but it's just that with that phone of mine,
which is like only 2mp
the photos will be like super low quality and blur.
so.. rather than to disgrace myself and my phone i rather not have it now, heh.

wait till i get my hands on a really good camera(:

anyway, went back to school today for physics tuition and college day.
let's skip the tuition part.

College day. i wouldn't say it's much of a bore except for prize presentation part.

that was really the can-fall-asleep period of time.

1) Because i aint receiving any prize

2) Because the list is soooo long

heh.

but seriously with their expressions beaming with joy
i bet the award recipients felt really great at that moment.

"i want to be one of them next year!"
that's what i told myself(:
time and time again
i'll remind myself of that goal i have for now.

borrowed from someone ( pardon me for not checking up the name =/)

"if you have been dreaming all the while. it's fine. Now, put the foundations under them."

i found that really meaningful.

so yeah. and borrowed from the college's guest today
"Dare to Dream. Determined to Do"

that's about it for College day.
if i carry on i think you guys might just leave this site.

so anw, i've been in kind of a really deep thinking process these few days.
REALLY DEEP~
*hahaha!*

come to several conclusions which has long been stated by others before =/

well, life just ain't fair, don't you agree? but there's this twist to it.
if you're determined enough,
things do turn around in a way or another.

believe it, or not.
it's all up to you.

Living in a world so skeptical and practical
it's no easy job.

be it your looks
your status
your behaviour
anything in you, you might be pin pointed on just for that fact.
but still, miracles do happen, if you believe in it.

dont believe?
watch this.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lp0IWv8QZY&feature=related

sorry for not uploading the vid, cos the embed code was taken off on youtube.
anw, i guess most of you have heard of her.

Susan Boyle.
one who embrace the dream of being a star singer similar to Elaine Page.
In school, she wasn't the favourites of all her peers
simply because of her appearance.
in a way, i would say she's deprived of opportunities and chances.

and that was what happened to her when she first when on stage.
judging by her appearance, no one held any expectations of her.
judges were amused.
audiences were giggling away.
but the first sentence she sang

awed and shocking expressions were visible across everyone.
everyone was so full of praises for her after her performance.

somehow
i feel something magical and powerful in her voice
like as in she sang right through into my heart.
that strength and feel she has in her voice.
i bet some have the same feeling as i do.

No matter what, do try that vid!

so..

Don't judge a book by its cover.

ciaos(:

so much to say, but who's there to listen?
somehow, words are just too limited to describe everything.
how i wish for a her...

2009-04-23T21:24:00.003+08:00

things were just crap today.
been quite some time since i really feel like complaining
and felt this worse.
but it seems like i wun be let off that easily ehs?

let everything turn out well next week yeah.
and of cos.
on sat, hopefully.

im seriously tired.
let time reverse
and humans become much simplier and naive
isn't that better?
*sigh*

i miss my hometown back in msia.
where days mundane
but filled with a simple source of happiness
and fulfilment.
where things are just like what they should be.

that's it.
ciaos.

P.S : 2 tests next mon, how great.

2009-04-17T22:11:00.002+08:00

sup.
i reckon that you guys had a great week yeah(:
weekend's here agn for us to take a short break!

the week was pretty alright for me.
trainings were fun(:
more of fun rather than exhausting and boring now, hehe.
and i found a super chatty friend in the team, lol.

the 2 consecutive days of training, yesterday and today, nearly killed me =___=
parts of my body still aching..
*gosh*
hope it gets better tmr!

anw, came back to posting cause i thought it'll be good to share a song with you guys.
it's a really nice song, i promise you that.

how many of you can actually live everyday as if it's your last?
making decisions that you know you will leave no regrets behind
cherishing and treasuring every single little moment..

this song, in fact has incorporated all these words and p.o.v within their song.
and seriously, it can in fact serves as a good guide to some.

this song, If today was your last day,
is from none other than Nickelback.
they are a really strong and solid band.
i've always think that their singer have a really unique voice.
kind of "add flavour" to the song(:

Each day's a gift
and not a given right.

so, let's cherish everyday yeah(:
Enjoy!

2009-04-15T20:18:00.003+08:00

bloody hell~
seeing those nice and high quality shots on all the blogs
those scenic shots

seriously makes me feel like owning a camera now!

been pretty tired these few days
can't really focus
got a feeling i might just conk out any moment=.=
i need a break
a real break

to recharge myself
i need someone...

batam!

2009-04-14T21:51:00.007+08:00

The OMG P.T. =________=

back!

2009-04-12T12:45:00.002+08:00

yeah
im back from batam
alive~

the trip's really great(:
had lotsa fun and great times there.
moments not shared by 2, 3, 4 or 5, but a group of 20 in NYBT(:
for me, i would rate this trip as a success.

last year, camp had a bad part and hiccupps were everywhere.
but this year was seriously much much better.

and we had a really hilarious and funny session during the team bonding session.
you guys will see what i mean when i get my hands on the videos.(:
yeah..

btw
the indonesian players were really awesome.
they were like younger than us
but pawning us like mad=.=
their placing and control is just so good!

and their training...
our sch training seriously just can't be compared to theirs.
my calves are still aching from the training till now =/
but on the other hand,
the nybt seriously got quite a bit of valuable experiences from the games and training.

to NYBT,
we survived their games.
we survived their training.
we came out alive of the super stuffy and panas training hall
we came out alive of after the drills.
we had enjoyed ourselves
we had fun during the team night.

so..
a big thank you from me to all of you(:

thanks for the fun trip!

Cheers(:

wooo

2009-04-09T20:16:00.003+08:00

an unexpected good news made my day!

i scored a distinction for pw.
yeah, A!

I seriously wasn't expecting that.
cries of joy erupted inside me(:
in fact, i was so happy that i couldn't control that feeling
i was grinning so widely when i went out of the room
that my mates started questioning me , "A?"
*laughs*

that moment felt really great!
i wanna feel that again the next year!
i'll promise myself that.

to those who have collected
good job everyone!

one down, let's all put our mind into the As alright?

those who got back their results and are disappointed,
do cheer up yeah.
this isn't the end.
prove yourself in the race for A levels.

I know some of you deserve grades better
but what's out is out
we can't really change it, right?

Life has never been fair.
I've had my really lousy moments and i know how s___ that feeling is.
but do look on the positive side.
things will get better.
After the unfortunate events, the good ones come(:
so.... yeah.

and to my group mates for PW :

I know i haven't been the best member you guys can ask for and I made mistakes along the way.
Thanks for the journey throughout
helping and giving in at times.
really thanks alot.
this wouldn't have been possible without you guys.
Thanks
-Yanting
-Vanessa
-Christabel (hope to see you real soon!)

and of course
that stupid yet smart leader(:

-Lin Hlaan Win

thanks guys!
so i guess..
thats all for today.
gotta go pack for batam trip tmr(:
hope the friendly will turn out good.

Cheers(:

P.S : So now i owe someone an ice cream treat ehs(:

2009-04-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

have this two thoughts suddenly came into mind.
so i thought perhaps i could post it up here for you all to think about(:

Do we stop playing when we grow old?

We grow old because we stop playing.

Perfection is when you can encompass and compromise the imperfections.

2009-04-05T14:57:00.003+08:00

hey all.
how's the week?

think mine wasn't too good.
yet another week's coming.
bet i gonna have monday blues =__=

sometimes i really wish i can stop time.
Naive eh?

got no idea what to blog about.
my thoughts seem to be interrupted and just broke off halfway nowadays.

STM?
Going crazy?

i guess it's a bit of both.

2009-04-01T21:44:00.002+08:00

Friendly today with SAJC is great(:
victorious.

but i think i injured my wrist.
not the v serious type
but it's still quite bad i would say.

feel pain even just bending it a little.
=_____=

no cca tmr!
WOO~
gonna spend the time doing tutorials=.=

ciaos~

Cheers(:

2009-03-29T21:42:00.001+08:00

crap~

it s___ big time when my urge to study comes on moment
and is gone the next.

please
just bless me with the strength to carry on all this.

2009-03-29T01:14:00.002+08:00

Sup.

time check : 0116

given my level of fatigue
i should be in bed snoring away right now
but decided to update a little(:

had napfa test in the morning.
was kind of smooth this year.
got a silver on the first attempt.

last year i had to do twice because of my pull up
but i managed to clear it today(:
what shocked me was SBJ and Sit & Reach.
the results were horrible initially.

first attempt @ SBJ : 218cm =______=
lucky i managed to jump well and cleared later on.

first attempt @ Sit & Reach : 36 cm =________=
that is like soooooooo short!

but still, best i did was 38cm=.=
im too stiff!
and ms toh called me ying bang bang for that.
how nice =.=

spent the rest of the day with 0921.
a nice bunch of peeps they are(:
met up at around 445
pool-ed, dinner, bday celebration for 3.
reached home not long ago.

it has really been a good escape from my work for today.
enjoyed.

living in this world has seriously gotten more demanding and tougher.
sometimes, i wish i could just have a breather.
a period of the usual routine of school, work and sports
just a little escape to a village

a cup of coffee every morning
with the greenery as my backdrop
and a huge beautiful lake infront of the house.
of course, with the special her around.

time for sleep.

time check : 0130

Cheers(:

2009-03-27T21:11:00.003+08:00

gosh.
In a few days time, we'll be leaving March behind!
Mid Year is seriously closing up on me.
of course, the As too.

Life has always been hectic, hasn't it?
It's always one task after another.
Physically, we already have quite a bit to manage, all the work and stuffs.
but not forgetting, a psychological side that resides in us need to be balanced out as well.

At times, people just conked out or break down under pressure.
Can't really blame them.
After all, different people have different levels of tolerance of stress yeah.
plus, at times everything bad might just hit you altogether in a blow, leaving you no time to react.

Before you knew it, you are down already.

For me, i guess im going through this part of the life currently. Things haven't been going really well for me.

There are times when i seriously feel like giving up and just let it all go.
It just make me feel so tired.

i tried and tried telling myself
"come on, just think positive. It's gonna get over, buck up and start working".

apparently, it's not working that well now.
All the negative feelings just seem to set in on me.
how how?

*sigh*

Life's such a task.
in a more religious perspective,
coming to this earth is already a form of sufferring, having unable to attain nirvana and enlightment,
and because as a human, u have to go through the pain of living, leaving, dying and being apart.
agree?

At this point in time, i do.
but i know it can be loads better.

gotta ciao.
omg, i find this post so crap all of sudden.

Napfa's tmr. With my knee in a bad shape, i wonder how am i going to run?
and of cos, my chin ups.

Miracles do happen, dont they?

2009-03-24T22:15:00.009+08:00

life seems to get harder.
trying real hard to get a grip over it.

yearn for a listening ear and an understanding soul to be there with me..

seen the two pics above?

results of run-away anger.

the spots being circled, those are the cracks that appeared after i smash

my racket into the floor when i was fuming.

things just aren't right for me now

change it back, will you?

2009-03-22T23:12:00.003+08:00

ohh screw.
sch's on tmr.

hellish days and work start tmr!
but im sure i gonna survive through it ( i think )
though chances apparently aren't too high =/

i told myself
no matter what.
im so gonna go on stage to receive my results slip next year.

gotta ciao.
econs mini research paper.

Cheers(:

P.S: More holidays. please~?

2009-03-20T22:06:00.008+08:00

so much to say
yet words just cannot describe it all.

total crapness~
=_____=

hey there peeps.
weekends are here agn!
which means another week has passed us.
thats fast!

like as usual, life's been pretty mundane
which is good in a way
but yet bad
cos felt like kind of wasted.

instead of being high, filling it with all the fun and joy
i chose to let life be slow and mundane.
*sigh*
what to do?

anyway, few days back i saw this baby on the train when i was returning home from training.
was talking to brenda, when the baby started grabbing my pants
(she was in a pram)

then i turned around
and saw her looking at me
with the big round gooo-gooo eyes
and the smile hung on her face.

i "melted" instantly.
she's just so cute!

i nearly wanted to just carry that baby out of the pram and start to cuddle her.
but i reckon i'll be assaulted by the mum if i do that
so... i dropped that idea
*laugh*

but Babies are just simply so cute!
they are the one thing i just cant resist.

looking at them,
i found the peace and the moment of joy that is so pure and so true on its own.
seeing their smile
hearing that laughter makes my day(:

the world we lived in now.

so saturated
so "evil"
so cold

that virtue of innocence in the babies.
that simple world they have
that pure joy and happiness they possess.

oh, how i envy them.

perhaps im too young and a tad immature now to say that
but i wish to have a baby of my own.
my kid.

Babies are simply just so cute
and really make me want to look after and take care of them.
of cos, the responsibilities that follows are no joke.
but still
seeing babies and cuddling them make you feel loved and blissful, doesn't it?
(:

The magic in them..

Cheers(:

2009-03-17T22:14:00.004+08:00

people
try this vid.
it's beautiful~

the settings are right
the singers are way good~

perhaps it may sound exaggerating to you
but seriously
it hits me real hard and i simply love this vid so damn much.
Enjoy(:

Lucky - Jason Mraz feat. Colbie Caillat

2009-03-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

hey all

had a nice rest over the weekends?

i kinda had one(:
but it ended up today hasn't been fruitful *Sigh*
let's start with sat.

when all were still sleeping, i was preparing for my trip down to NTU.
Signed up for this Economics Seminar about a month ago.
The fact that the lectures were gonna be given by Professors and doctors of NTU made this trip seemed like a worthwhile one to me, and it proven to be as well.

weeks before the seminar, the frightening thought of a straight day of economics struck me
but still, i signed up for it, at the expense of my survival

(i might collapsed halfway in the lect for all you know, due to all the bombastic and profound information pressing on my brain)

*laughs*

but it ended up that there were tea breaks, apart from the usual lunch break.
ok, maybe it's just that im sua-gu, didn't know seminars have tea breaks, haha.

the whole session and experience was a pretty good one(:
except for a few.
It's not that it's not good, just that it was too sophisticated for the limited amount of brain cells i have working on that day =/

but still, the session was truly beneficial(:

seeing that the lunch break was like 1.5 hours,
my mates and I, namely haihuang and win,
went touring around NTU after our pathetic lunch (the serving was really small!)

Coincidentally, that day was the open house for NTU as well.
headed for their auditorium.

Then, the "business personality" in me were starting to get active, thus my first reaction to look out for the Nanyang Business School booth.
Managed to find it in a just a short time(:
Had a conversation with one of their students, broadened my perspective and views on business courses.

Might be taking a few more degrees into consideration before narrowing down on one.

ohh yeah, did i mention that cheryl's sis is studying there?
How cool is that!

well, most probably i'll be taking SMU and NUS, as well as other courses into consideration as well, since i have like almost up to a year to think about it(:

but 100% it'll be business-related, just that is it Bachelor in Accountancy, Business Admin, Banking and Finance etc.

seriously, that conversation i had with the Year 2 student, it was really beneficial.
led me on to think more and more about the path i should take.
It's a decision that will decides how my career path will be like
A wrong choice might not give you the most amount of joy and satisfaction one should have.

Credits to him ( i didn't managed to get his name, but he's an accountacy student)

i should really start planning and set my sights into 5-10 years from now for a short term achievement, and 20-30 years from now for the long term one.

some can be so successful even before the age of 25.
yes, some luck is needed, but i believe perspiration and hardworking plays the dominant part.

i seriously wish to have some achievements before im 30.
i want my family to be proud of me

i want to be proud of myself.

i want to live the life i want.

but it's a fact that my self-discipline just s__k.
it's about time i work on that.
A lvls isn't far.

i'll need all the self discipline i have to work towards that, and of cos, my goals and career as well.

back to seminar part 2 aft that.
as mentioned, was pretty good.

it had a lecture on the value of human life, how much is your life worth?

something not done in class, and it was pretty interesting!
the seminar ended off with a light note.

Speaker : well, if yo 'll haven't noticed, there was a hot air balloon flying around just now during your lunch break.

*Audiences go oooh*

Speaker : The PM was on a suprise tour with his ministers. Then above this area, he shouted down at some of the students, which i see them in a corner of this room right now, "where are we?"

*Audiences go wow"

Speaker : well, after hearing the answer, the PM would definitely have known he's just above the Economics LT."

*Puzzled look*

Speaker : They shouted back at the PM, "You are here!". It was immediate, technically correct and... completely useless!

*ROFL*
The whole LT burst into laughter.

Kudos to those who understand this(:

Sunday hasn't been a fruitful day for me, so i shall skip(:

it's about time for me to go snore away in my bed and enter lala land.
gotta report to sch by 8 tmr, which means need to wake up by 6!

Ciaos!

Cheers(:

2009-03-13T23:04:00.003+08:00

career seminar day
speaker for GIA was way cool and amazing!

had training
watched The One in NY
it rocks my socks!

good job SC!

thoughts for the day :

love is not everything ;
Love makes the world goes round.

Practise what you preach (absolutely)

Koped from Audrey's blog :

We either make ourselves miserable or make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.
-Carlos Castaneda

pretend, pretence

2009-03-11T21:37:00.002+08:00

hey peepo.
hope you all are doing fine with the crazy weather these few days!

had a talk with one of my friend today.
kinda worked out well for the both of us,
shared our p.o.v and thoughts.

it's like..
the world today is so "fake", in a way.
everywhere you go, you can see people putting up pretences.

nice to you on the surface
might be jabbing you the next moment behind your back.

or the mouth is actually saying "yeah, ohh ok~"
and in the mind it actually goes "ohh, damn you".
kind of sad isn't it?

frankly,
how many of you make fair judgements with no bias or tweaked impressions?

personally, i am proud to say that i actually do that 90% of the time.
no one is perfect, neither am I

however, before every judgement i make, i question myself this

"Am I in the position to make that judgement?"

if it's a bad impression, then this pop out in my mind.

"Have i done something similar? Did i change? otherwise why am I critisizing others?"

it's some sort of a self reflection for me i would say.

This world contains too much controversy.
every little disagreement can sparke off a dispute, argument or even a furore.

what is right and what is wrong?

it all depends on the majority and the norm i guess.

it's natural and inevitable for everyone to create different judgements and impressions.

however, it'll be nice to just do a sort of a little self-reflection before developing that thought/judgement.

if you formed a bad impression on someone yet you once carried out that act that gave you that bad impression, then on what grounds are you to judge on that act?

it all requires maturity, a sense of self-reflection and being humble i would say.
it requires time in cultivating these habits
which im in the process of doing so too.
however, i dont think im seeing much of this sight.
am i wrong to say that?

i would love someone to prove me wrong on that.

what i believe,
as long as you do reflect upon your actions and do make a change over the mistakes
then believe in your own actions.

whatever criticism/compliments, take it in.
reflect upon it.
Throw out the ones that just spells crap.

it's easy recognising those that carries no weight in them,
looking at who made the comments.

and,
thanks those who knock you down in your path.
because he had just made you into a stronger person.

Cheers(:

a fall so hard

2009-03-09T19:18:00.003+08:00

bloody pissed, disappointed and demoralised by my results.
no one to blame but myself.

really wish to talk to her

affairs of the heart

2009-03-08T22:09:00.003+08:00

wouldn't this world be a better place with a bit more love in the air?

hi there people.
life's been good?
i hope so.

i ain't having a really good time though =/
pressure crushing down on me since the receiving of results
coupled with some other matters that have been troubling me since like 123456789n weeks ago
it's really draining every bit of energy i have.

had a really long sleep today.
bout half the day gone.
hope this gives me the energy i need to carry on.
*fingers crossed*

to my friends/anyone out there,
if you also bothered by the matters of the heart
all the best.

don't be afraid to speak out your feelings.

sometimes, it helps to be thick-skinned a little(:

Cheers(:

the path lies in your hand

2009-03-06T22:18:00.002+08:00

hello people.

today's a big day for a number of people.

A levels results release day!

the seniors of NYJC came back to collect their results today
and get their deserved recognition for the grades they worked hard for.

They must have a not-so-good sleep yesterday night
having all kinds of feelings inside them
*laughs

the collection of results started with recognising those who scored 3 distinctions or better
they were called on stage to collect their results slip from the principal himself

i can barely imagine that feeling of joy and relief that surged in them when they see their names appearing of the big screen infront of the J2 and graduate cohort.
that moment when you felt that after 2 years of hardwork and perseverance, it finally paid off.

i was full of envy back then, wishing that i am one of them, receiving the many distinctions.
then, i released i still have a good long way to go, but i'll get myself standing in their position the next year when collecting my results.

i'll get myself a place in NTU business and get hold of an MBA.

once again, congrats to all.

after that was training.
today was a-ok~.
wasn't any physical,
plenty of games and matches.
with the real one against ACJC setting in on tuesday.

i'll start visualising how im going to win them
*laughs*
however, the main point of why im posting today lies in what happened after the training.

kimwei, a NYJC senior/alumni, joined teck wei yilong bernice and me for dinner tonight.
we sort of have a talk on how education and skills are important today's practical society, how life pose challenges to us.

The latter was the one that caught my attention as kimwei recollected and shared his insights and experiences.

Each and every one of us have a different life of our own, an one and only unique story that will slowly unveil as we move on.

However, how the story goes and how it ends depends on no one but us ourselves.
we hold that choice, that miracle that we are able to create in our hands.

Life is definitely full of challenges and obstacles.
However, you only get to live it once, you want to live it through by blaming all the stupid obstacles and challenges that stood in your way preventing you to becoming who you can,
OR
you take on the challenges with confidence and move on to becoming a stronger and better person?

Feeling bad and angry when posed a challenge will only aggravates the problem.
it makes you feel worse, more lousy.

every/any event that happen in your life is a brand new experience, how you wan to make use of it lies in your choice. Whether to turn it into a learning point, or to just let it pass by , it lies solely on you.

A mind which thinks positively will definitely carry you further than the one that constantly says no and give up.

set your mindset the right tune today and each day will be a better day to you.

Cheers(:

2009-03-05T21:00:00.002+08:00

it was TOTALLY TERRIBLE to receive my grades today.
it suck totally!

one was expected, one was unexpected.
the one which was expected, it still felt sucky receiving such grades.

the one unexpected,
i had a terrible shock upon receiving back the script.
speechless for minutes.
but what done's done.

this will be a wake up call for me ( i hope )

i swear i'll make a comeback.

2009-03-03T21:16:00.002+08:00

Attention people!

i saw this video on facebook and seriously, i give my respect to the speaker, though she's only a teenager that might be around my age, or maybe even younger.

This young girl speaks about a controversial topic that might spark off yet another fierce debate within the world's greatest organisation, United Nations.

She stands strong, with pride as she represents those with the same ambitions and goals as her.

Even a teenager like her stands infront of the UN and address this critical issue at the moment, isn't it time that we should do something within our limits?

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?ref=home#/video/video.php?v=63865811753&ref=nf

Go on the link to see how the girl silenced the world for 6 minutes at the UN conference.